DOSE: T+ 0:00		smoked	Peyote
T+ 0:30		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

100 lb

I live in Texas and have a friend (let's call him L) who regularly gets peyote and brings it for us to smoke. I've never read about anyone smoking peyote but it's always worked for us so I've never questioned it. The first few times I tried peyote it was mixed with k2 and weed, and the one time I tried it by itself, I took a small hit like everyone said and had a nice time.

But on this particular day, I'd been really stressed out and upset and I just wanted to get high. So my friend (let's call her J) and I decide to take big hits. Neither of us thought about how stupid it is to do a hallucinogen when you're upset, and we both took big hits and held them in, expecting it to be fun because I've never had a bad experience with peyote. But I'd also never tripped before.

A few seconds later, the pipe is back in my hands and I don't feel much, except a little dizzy. I wasn't particularly alarmed by this, but I was already starting to feel anxious for some reason I couldn't explain. Soon, I felt like my entire body was vibrating, and it got so bad I didn't even know what to do. Everything looked like it was in slow motion. At this point I'm still coherent, and so I keep telling myself over and over that it's just a drug and I'll be fine. So I take a hesitant seat next to my friend J, who looks really nervous herself. My hands find a little orange bouncy ball and the texture of it I remember feeling so strange and intense against my vibrating fingers. But I'm starting to get really scared now. Everything feels very intense and I'd never done this drug without pot to mellow me out, and I didn't think I could even walk to go outside to smoke some.

Now I'm getting really scared and I just stare at the ground and zone out for a minute, trying to calm down because I'm feeling very scared just because of this drug. When I snap back, I suddenly don't recognize the people around me, who are very very close friends. I look around and I can remember their names and everything but I don't know how they know me or anything. I feel like I've been dropped into someone else's body. I remember thinking to stay quiet because I thought I was put into someone else's body and I didn't want them to think that I was someone else. I was very confused about everything. I thought that it was my first time smoking pot (though I'm an avid stoner) and maybe it was the weed doing it to me.

All my friends keep trying to pass me the bong to hit and I keep refusing. It's hard to explain, but I felt like everything was repeating over and over, like everything we were saying and doing we'd already said and done a million times before. I remember getting scared and thinking that this was my entire existence, my entire life was just this repeat of these moments , like an endless groundhog day. Finally, after 30 minutes of my panicked self freaking out, I chilled out in the bathroom with my boyfriend (who I hardly recognized!) and finally took a hit of weed. After I hit it, I instantly came back and was fine. Crazy shit.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 102104
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 15
Published: May 20, 2016	Views: 6,540
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