My Most Beautiful Experience
Ibogaine
Citation: Marie. "My Most Beautiful Experience: An Experience with Ibogaine (exp104421)". Erowid.org. Jan 24, 2016. erowid.org/exp/104421
DOSE: T+ 0:00 |
oral | Ibogaine | (capsule) | |
T+ 0:45 | oral | Ibogaine | (capsule) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 100 lb |
My fiance was there to take care of me and when I started to freak about at 45 minutes into the experience he calmed me down by telling me there was nothing to do but go through with it and only time would cure it. He had me lay down in a dark room with a candle right away. Almost 2 hours in I felt myself really going into it and hurried and took the rest of my dose. My body was burning all over and although it did not hurt it was not pleasant either. There was also the telltale metallic buzzing that seems common in reports but for me it seemed to be an intelligence of its own. Like it came with the iboga and was there to see me through. At this point I can't keep my eyes open and I go into the dream world.
I start in this dark world or realm seems to be like a hell where I am reborn from a plant. New and clean a shaman looking man comes to me and tells me 'Finally I have been waiting for you'. I think this is the iboga spirit and I go with him where he shows me over and over the words addict and addicted telling me I am not an addict unless I choose to be addicted. Over and over. This is where my experience becomes unlike everything I have read. Apparently I did vomit several times small amounts and then got out of bed and put myself in the bathroom with blankets and pillows but I have no memory of any of this.
I then go into several different realities that I live in for months and years. These realities are in the past and future and present and all over the world, one in space and one in a different world entirely. Every reality I lived in was a metaphor or sometimes more direct for the things I needed to be shown and live.
Every reality I lived in was a metaphor or sometimes more direct for the things I needed to be shown and live.
I also lived in several worlds where my fiance and I kept using and in each one we became terrible people and something terrible happened as a result. This message was very clear to me. It kept on like this though with all these different realities I kept living in to learn certain lessons. They seemed as real to me as anything and in fact when I came out of it they were registered as memories and I kept insisting for instance that we had went to France which is one of the places I went in my head because that was how vivid it was.
The mistake I made was traveling very soon afterwards.
The mistake I made was traveling very soon afterwards.
I know this works better for some people and isn't so intense but I am so grateful for what it did for me and I know this is a divine gift. I am ready to literally dedicate the rest of my life to it because it was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced and although it hasn't been that long I have no desire to ever do addiction to myself again. I recommend anyone with an addiction try this and go in with an open mind. I also recommend going to a clinic because I lost 15 lbs I couldn't afford to lose and almost died. I hope this beautiful drug however gets the credit it deserves. Sorry I am all over the place I still am not 100% as of now but had to get it out. Everything is so beautiful now I can't help but cry at their beauty.
[Reported Dose: '.6 TA .9 HCL']
Exp Year: 2014 | ExpID: 104421 |
Gender: Female | |
Age at time of experience: 25 | |
Published: Jan 24, 2016 | Views: 4,726 |
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Ibogaine (28) : Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Entities / Beings (37), Glowing Experiences (4), Addiction & Habituation (10), Small Group (2-9) (17) |
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