DOSE:

100 mg

oral

Armodafinil

BODY WEIGHT:

170 lb

Great but Be Careful

I tried Modafinil for the first time today. Took 100mg at 5am and then went back to sleep. Woke up around 6:30am feeling wide awake and pretty energetic. My intent was to go to work and knock out a ton of stuff, and do some studying on the side. My goal with Modafinil is to advance my career and have more energy as a parent of small children (an energy draining experience for those who know).

The morning was going great. I had made a list/schedule the night before and everything was clicking just fine. Then I hopped on my bike for my daily 4 mile commute to the office. I felt amazing and was smiling as I pedaled. What I did not fully appreciate is that the same prized quality of intense focus that Modafinil brings, is at the expense of any kind of peripheral awareness.

Nearing my office, I opted for a different route because it was more 'efficient.' I could get there faster, and faster was better. At this point I was extremely narrowly focused on getting to work as quickly as possible (God only knows why), and all peripheral awareness was gone. I was on autopilot.

As I crossed a wide avenue that was honestly not even busy at the time, a car traveling at 40-50 mph passed inches from me. I felt the rush of air and I could swear part of it touched me, perhaps the side mirror. I immediately snapped out of my trance and realized I hadn't been treating this substance with all due care.

I think I spent the rest of the day in a kind of emotional shock. The modafinil seemed to make me feel kind of emotionally detached anyway, but I could in no way process the fact that I had almost died. Now, as the drug gradually fades, I reflect on my motivation for taking this drug. I would like to get more done, be a better parent, build something better for my family. But because of my lack of understanding about modafinil I could have been killed.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 105793
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 40
Published: May 24, 2021	Views: 1,160
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