DOSE: T+ 0:00	4 g	oral	Syrian Rue	(tea)
T+ 0:40	10 g	oral	Acacia confusa	(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

80 kg

Experience: 8 years meditation, 5 years studying Buddhism, 1 Ayahuasca session & 3 of ACRB + Syrian rue home brews

Preparation:
Approx. 10g Acacia Confusa Root Bark (ACRB) to 4g syrian rue brewed 3x separately.
1 full week of clean diet & just ate bread on the day. (no vomiting)
1 week of 1 hour meditation per day. (Samatha/Samadhi/Jhana practice)

My partner assisted me on the evening. Well prepared with positive encouragement, love and physical assistance. Pre consuming I was a little apprehensive and considered bailing. Assured myself that it’s only 1 night, and tomorrow I’ll be fine. Set intentions to “love everyone”. I drank 4x 30ml shots of SR brew and 40 mins later 4x30ml shots of ACRB brew. Brews tasted not great. Chased each shot with a grape.

Experience:
Within half an hour the visuals start. There are gold and jewels everywhere. Everything is moving. It’s just like the outside of some big beautiful palace. I remember this feeling from previous experience. It has eyes watching me. I’m a bit nervous. A few times I get a glimpse some giant beings beyond the horizon. They are making all these things happen. The gold and stuff are just distractions. I feel like a baby being entertained like with a mobile. I remember the love for my partner and my family and expand that to everyone and everything possible. I start to open up my 3rd eye. I can physically feel it in my head like a cracking open. I feel as a god with love and connection to all. I remember this feeling from previous experience. Visually there are even more beautiful gold and jewels even more than before. It feels so good. I think about Buddha. Attach to Nothing! As tempting as it is to enjoy this place, I must focus and denounce this place. I try to let it go.

I set my intention to let go of all phenomena. I see more random visuals. I discovered I could control them with ever so slight mind movements. I knew it was all not real. The eyes present again. I was no longer hypnotized by these distractions. The surroundings seem disappointed with me. They start to show me skulls and demons. I am a bit worried at first but I say “good or bad whatever I see, it’s not real – do what you will” It seems to accept my answer and I feel a shift. I feel my 3rd eye open again.

I reach a plane with immense power. I can see why one would be tempted to remain here. I am god. There would be very interesting things to learn. But this is not my goal. I wish to let go. My mind says “let go let go let go let go” These jokers (like from a pack of cards) appear and spin in circles throwing sparkly dust in the air. It was kind of funny. They were mimicking my mantra. I created them. I can create anything! I keep feeling my 3rd eye opening more as I enter a giant spherical room of entities of pure mind. I can just feel these faint spirits all around. It's light pink and white in colour, looks a bit like the inside of one of those static electricity balls. I briefly think I've made it. There is no more letting go to be done. My mind is so subtle. I soon become dissatisfied. There is still an I. When I focus within that plane there is still more to let go.

Just awareness enters a sphere of darkness. Whatever is left of me is totally gone bar pure awareness, without any distraction. I am at a point of being able to switch off consciousness. This is the end of me, I have crushed all delusion. I realize this information needs to be passed on. I can help people and make the world a better place. I decide to stay and return to the material plane.

5 earth hours had passed. I start to think how I can exist in a material world again. I need to put myself back together in a way to incorporate these new experiences and function. I start to work on my insights. I go around a thought loop, trying to understand. I refocus on the present moment. I open my eyes. I can see the infinity in everything I focus on. I see 1 atom of matter as infinite possibilities. When I step back the content can change and move to anything. I see the world in a very different way. There is no fixed state. I have 2 mouthfuls of soup and can taste each individual flavor through each individual taste bud and when I focus on one I can taste the sun and the earth and the water and the farmer and the infinite beyond. I touched water and can feel infinity.

I know this experience will not follow me as I come back down. So what is the best way to be in the world? I back up off the super focus and apply it to all. I am left with just happiness. I am perfectly happy just in the moment with no attention to anything but the moment. It’s the perfect moment. I felt this way many times in the past. It’s the happy-go-lucky mind. I realize distractions take us from the moment, and the world we live in is bombarding us with distractions, often which pull us into negative states of jealousy, hate and delusion. Even in this state, even the very analysis of this state, this state is taking me from this perfect moment. I go through loops of experiencing the perfect moment and analysis. I vow to try and live in the perfect happy unattached moment as I come out of this state. I wish for happiness for all and try to help others be happy. Or if they want to follow the path then assist that. The world is our beautiful playground so let’s be happy in it. We must also practice infinite patience. Love; that giving selflessness is the positive energy which powers all that we know. There is the opposite to balance that too, the destructive. I must remain between these, and serve truth and those around me.

Immediate reflections:
I believe I left time. The deeper we go into the concentration of moment through letting go the more time slows to nothing: The moment within the moment. With the body, sense of self and space left behind what I am left with is time. With time transcended, I have infinite time, and then there is infinite possibility (matter). There is no point trying to control anything. There is no point attaching to anything. Let go. Take the hands off the wheel. It’s the most freeing insight and gives birth to the most resonating happiness.

I later reflect that the “gods” are within us. They are subtle energies which compel us to do what we do. If one worships a certain god one moves oneself in the direction of its energy. They are not in fact gods, but just our intentions themselves. It is our choice to go in the direction we want to. But we can transcend these gods and move to higher planes. These are the planes beyond want.

My insight into gods/entities contradicts what I have previously heard from people with a lot of experience in ayahuasca. They are all about the the purge, aliens, entities, god spirits etc. These things are true on lower levels of the ayahuasca/jhana realms. I don’t doubt that that is some people’s reality because we create our own reality. We can have a bad time if that’s where we aim. We can see gold or god/s or aliens if that’s where we aim.

Sometimes we have no aim, but the subtle mind does, and ayahuasca and meditation showed me. I found the best method to enhance ayahuasca is Samatha/Samadhi/Jhana practice. The Ayahuasca realms align with those of jhana realms, and Buddhism gives accurate descriptions of the realms and how to ascend.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 106984
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 34
Published: Feb 15, 2017	Views: 4,762
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