DOSE:

1.5 g

oral

Smarts - Phenibut

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

Before I took the dose I was in a somewhat anxious mindset as it was my first time and buying stuff off the internet always makes me a little nervous about what is actually in it. ( Could be anything!) I mainly was interested in it for it's supposed effects for reducing social anxiety and the euphoria sounded nice but I don't usual experience that on anything besides hard drugs.

At 3:30 I took 1.5 grams and took my dog for a walk on the beach.

Around 4:30 I noticed everything becoming slightly off- the colors were strange, I saw that my footsteps in the sand were going back and forth a bit. I also become very obsessed with taking pictures- mostly close ups of textures/ patterns.

At 5:00 when I got back in the car as I was driving I noticed I was driving very slowly. Only about 30 mph. I was in my own world and everything felt slightly like I was driving through a tunnel that was stretched. Definitely very relaxed. I pulled over at a store to try to decide what I felt like doing- what to get for dinner, if I should just go home, if I was truly unfit to drive. (My reactions were still good as far as I could tell- a deer jumped out in front of me and I hit the brakes with plenty of room.) I felt super indecisive and unmotivated- at a loss of what to do. I went home. My boyfriend was there and wanted to go out. I had no desire to do anything- social or otherwise. We ordered take out and I made him go in and get it as even the idea of getting out of the car annoyed me.

Around 7:00 we got home again and I was hit with a slight surge of energy- I cleaned the kitchen, washed the floors, worked on a project for about an hour. One thing was I became very emotional- I was looking at a picture of my grandma and couldn't stop crying. Mind in a loop of how scary it was she was gone forever, would be forgotten, how everyone you love dies, etc.

8:30 I was done. Ate even though I wasn't hungry, felt a little nauseous and little headache. Watched a show and once again everything seemed dramatically doomed in a way- the inevitable heartbreak of life hit me really hard and I cried some more which I guess in a way was a nice release. My head also felt really heavy.

10:30 Went to bed and read for about half and hour- comprehending everything. Went to sleep and had crazy, epic, beautiful dreams. ( So that part was worth it! )

In the morning I slept till about 9- a little later than usual and right up until then. But other than that felt normal no better or worse.

Overall I think I see some potential- just not sure if it works for me. I think getting the dose right is probably key and very precise. It's funny cause even though I did not love it I still felt like I wanted to do it again the next day- I do have an addictive personality so I guess I feel that way about most things but I am still going to try to proceed cautiously.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 107488
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: May 21, 2019	Views: 5,219
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