DOSE: T+ 0:00	20 mg	oral	Pharms - Escitalopram	(daily)
T+ 0:00	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem
T+ 0:50	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Zolpidem

BODY WEIGHT:

79 kg

(To be clear I'm under psychiatric treatment for anxiety and severe depression, I take 20mg of Lexapro daily and I'm prescribed 10mg of Ambien at night.)

I was taking dinner with my family because of New Years Eve, to be honest I hate spending time with the whole family but surprisingly that day was okay and full of scary stories about paranormal experiences in my grandmother's house. The clock marked 00:00 and everyone went home before it was to dangerous. ( People in my city usually shoot the sky when is NYE ). I walked to the car and could smell the gunpowder and the burn smell of the fireworks.

00:40 and I'm home in my room, I check my phone for any messages and there is one of my boyfriend who lives in Germany, he was still partying. I have major depression issues and at that moment was tired of being sad and overthink so I popped a Zolpidem 10mg tablet and log on to Netflix to watch a movie and fall asleep.

1:20 My boyfriend was lonely so I start to have a conversation with him.
1:30 I went to the bathroom looked in the mirror and said ''What the fuck'' and pop up another 10mg tablet.

1:40 I had Donnie Darko movie playing in the background. And start tripping. I was telling my boyfriend to come to my 1.50 wide bed.
By 1:50 I was lost and decided to make a foto for my boyfriend, I was already wearing my pijamas but change my clothes took a picture of myself. Couple minutes after it I was naked and wanted to send another picture to him but my phone ran out of battery, so I decided to charge it up and suddenly I had another blouse on me, the phone had 5 percent battery now so I took a photo of my cleavage and send it to my boyfriend.

2:00 I couldn't write a single message, it was very difficult but hallucinations were already pretty strong.

2:20 I realise everything I did and was scared and wanted to be in company of my boyfriend, I was very confused and was asking why and when everything happened. I could feel because the sounds of the movie playing on my laptop that I was in the Afterhour where my boyfriend was in Berlin, but suddenly I was writing to my boyfriend what the hell were we doing in New York. It was crazy!

I also wrote that I was seeing people, there were 5 or 6 people dressed in black with their head covered all over my room. I couldnt find my boyfriend and I was desperate, then suddenly I was seeing the bubbles of the messages I send him and thought they were chocolate mint cookies. After this I wrote my boyfriend I was naked in bed and waiting for him.

All this happen in 10 minutes, I got him really scared so he called me and I was going so crazy and said I was shooting people and making weird sounds, I remember seeing the background on my mobile phone which was a photo of a tree taken in autum and the leaves were falling and everything was moving.

I don't know by 2:50 what happened anymore but apparently I was tripping and cried briefly because my boyfriend was in a tram going home and in my country there are no trams, so I was screaming to him, take a taxi and then realise I was tripping balls and then for half a minute, then I continue tripping.

At 9:00am I woke up to messages of my boyfriend telling me I scared him really much but I didn't remembered much details. I looked around my room and there were clothes on the floor and my sex toy right next to me, apparently I was really horny and asked my boyfriend: ''Do you have a girlfriend? Because I really want to fuck you'' and masturbated to a very intense orgasm.

But I have no idea about many parts of what happened, it all came back slowly when I read all the messages I sent to my boyfriend and the disaster I made out of my room.

For me it was a good trip, a little too crazy, the next day even though I woke up early I had terrible hangover like headache and slept all day.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 107653
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Mar 10, 2020	Views: 1,131
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