DOSE: T+ 0:00	2 hits	oral	DOC
T+ 1:45	1 hit	oral	DOC
T+ 0:00		smoked	Cannabis
T+ 0:00		smoked	Tobacco

BODY WEIGHT:

155 lb

There are a few notes I have to make before preceding. This was written a little over a year after the experience happened and is recreated from memory, and most of my research on the drug has been done after the experience. I DO NOT recommend approaching any psychoactive substance in the manner that I did, I was uneducated, foolish, and too eager in trying the substance. You should absolutely allergy test substances and test in small doses before increasing. And ALWAYS USE A TRIP SITTER. That being said this was one of the most profound experiences of my life and is very clear in memory.

I purchased a few DOC dosed mints from my dealer. I had previously bought 75mc LSD, and 5mg 2C-I tabs before at the same price so I had assumed that these would be about the same intensity (dumb me also assumed that they would last about as long as other research chemicals previously done, at around 6-8 hours).

My plan was to dose, trip at the beach, and then be able to drive home at the end of the night. This however did not go according to plan. It was early afternoon when I was set up at the beach and ready to drop. The day was beautiful and it would be a good temperature for the trip.

(- 0:00) I put two of the dosed Altoids mints in my mouth. I wanted to be able to taste the actual drug for comparison, but was unable to because of the overwhelming taste of the mints. I proceeded to put on a playlist I had setup beforehand, and opened up Loren Eiseley's 'The Immense Journey'.

(- 0:45) I was starting to anticipate the trip coming on. I started to see some very subtle drifting and change of colors, but whether this was early effects or placebo I am not sure of.

Eager to start a good time for myself, I put my stuff down and walked to the gas station. I purchased a White Owl Cigarillo and walked to my car. I was in the car for a while converting this into a marijuana cigar and started to think I had either been ripped off or that these doses were very weak. Walking back to my stuff on the beach, I concluded that the best option for me was to take another one of the minty doses.

(- 1:45) After the mint had completely dissolved in my mouth I lit up the blunt. (How I got away with this on a very open and public beach, I'll never know!). After the first hit of the blunt, I noticed the psychedelic effects start to come on. As I continued to smoke it down, I continued to trip harder and harder. When half of the blunt was gone, I was in a full blown face melter; rainbows were flashing across the sky, the sand was splashing around like water, and my spine and body was supremely stimulated. I somehow finished the blunt and texted my dealer trying to find out more information about what I had just put into my body. Two things got through to me, 'I double and triple dosed those', and 'DOC lasts 12-24 hours'.

I tried calm myself by lying down and listening to music. It's kind of hard to explain all the things that were going on in my head. Things were spinning at high speeds and bouncing off each other, I could think about a million things at once but nothing at the same time. There was an object that started to form in my head that would be a recurring theme throughout the trip, it was sphere like, but made of one large flowing metal ribbon, with vertical and rotational symmetry.

(- 3:30) I was tripping extremely hard at this point, and I could no longer handle the music, let alone trying to find music that reflected the insanity of the trip in my head. I laid on the beach face down with my eyes closed. The waves were the loudest thing I'd ever heard in my life, and they didn't even really sound like waves. It was like a child messed with a bunch of random effects in a production software; echos, reverb, distortions. The sun was starting to set and it was at this point I had realized that I wouldn't be able to make it through the night without some help. I concluded that my dad was the person that could save me. (WHY?) I walked to my car and sat there, pretty much just dazed with stimulation, but fortunately the auditory hallucinations had stopped. It took some mental monkey bars to get the call started, but I managed to get it going and say to him 'I'm on a lot of drugs', and pretty incoherently gave him the description of my location.

(- 4:00) My dad arrived with my mom in their car (He knew exactly where I was). He ushered me into the passenger seat of my car and took the wheel. All he said was 'You know what I have to say', and was silent the rest of the ride home. We drove by the ocean and I was upset that I had missed a majority of the sunset. The rest of the ride home though, felt like a space ship ride. I was fascinated by how cool all of the spaceships were, and how fast we were travelling through spacetime. When we slowed down and arrived at my house, things started to seem '4 dimensional', everything was inverting on itself, spinning, and travelling at high speeds.

Now this next part is very strange, but I'm going to do my best to describe it. The sphere object that I kept picturing in my head, was also now 4 dimensional, it was now a working machine inverting and shifting in on itself. There were two huge bars of this machine spinning and coming in towards me. I felt like I was going to be crushed in this huge machine, but by going to my parents for help, and being safe in my own home, I was able to hop up and make it through a small 'hoop' to safety. I felt like this big machine ball was something way bigger and more important to me, but something I had great knowledge and command over.

(- 6:30) My parents now had dinner prepared (I believe my mom thought that this would affect my hunger how my marijuana use did, quite the opposite however). I wasn't really able to eat and starting or continuing conversation was very difficult experience, I was too involved in my head. The music playing in the background sounded like crashing cars and nails on chalkboard. I picked up my cat and held him in my arms (very usual), but he just felt like he was flopped over dead. I was very concerned but my parents didn't make anything of it so I assumed it was a hallucination.

(- 8:00) I went back to my room and eventually left this overtly happy high dimensional state, but was still very much tripping. This is when my ego-death happened. I started to think about how much of a (maybe this part is exaggerated) spoiled brat I was growing up, how my parents have shown nothing but love and care for me, and all I did was push them away and neglect them. I took away my own self from the equation and realised how much I have taken from them and the world through my life.

(- 9:30) I eventually got myself to thinking about how I could equal the balance with how much I take from the world, by providing to the world. Very colorful and positive images formed for the next few years of my life and I wanted to know how I could make that happen. It was around 2 or 3 at this point and I was not going to bed anytime soon. I spent the rest of the night to the morning surfing the internet. I probably did more research in that few hours than I could in weeks of intense studying, I mean I was BLAZING through it; science, music, and more importantly the drug I was on, and psychedelics in general.

(- 15:00) Most of the visuals had calmed down through the next day, but I was still very much in a psychedelic head space. I had come back to the ego death state and eventually worked myself up and spent most of the day crying. I had felt like a disgrace and that my parents wouldn't love me anymore (not true). I wanted them to know how grateful I was for everything they had done for me. I was also VERY exhausted at this pointed and wanted to sleep more than anything, but wasn't able to.

I felt like a lot of my problems were stemmed from my drug use, by using them to avoid my problems in the real world. I even made the decision to throw all of my marjiuana and flush it down the toilet. (Well I smoke again \_(ツ)_/¯) I then taped up the rest of my DOC really tightly and promised to not come back to psychedelics like that until I was comfortable enough to use my own home and friends as a safety net. Many things in my life were put into perspective at this point.

I would say these effects lasted until around (t - 24:00) or even (t-28:00). My body and spine were still being stimulated, the sphere object persisted but was no longer a machine, and I was overwhelmed with emotion. I wasn't able to sleep until around 8pm, but by the time I woke up I felt extremely rejuvenated and ready to take on the world with a clear head.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 108097
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Jan 15, 2018	Views: 3,081
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