A Spiritual Journey
Amanita muscaria
Citation: Jerry H.. "A Spiritual Journey: An Experience with Amanita muscaria (exp109519)". Erowid.org. Dec 25, 2016. erowid.org/exp/109519
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20 g | oral | Amanitas - A. muscaria | (tea) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 160 lb |
I have been on this somewhat mystical path around 45 years but only recently have been revived around 8 months ago culminating in a state of enlightment and intimacy. While I dropped acid and mescaline a couple times in the 60's I've pretty much been drug free since except for weed. But when a small patch of these grew practically in my yard my wife discovered them and pointed them out. They'd been already damaged by a kid pulling the heads off so I gathered all I could and read up on the highly mythical origins of this shroom. They are pretty rare here and I became convinced these were meant for me. Knowing my spiritual resurgence my wife and daughter agreed.
My prep was to take all I had gathered and put it in my dehydrator sliced thinly. I then ground it to powder and used a tea method to seep it. My total yield was right about 20gms.
It started to take effect around 45 min later. The first couple hours were a lot of muscle spasms and jerking but no nausea or vomit at all. A deep sleep state and a carnal state lets say.
But I woke, and was somewhat coherent and managed to make it 10 ft to use the bathroom, still jerking muscle control. I remember seeing the clock and it was now 7 hours later.
That's when the real trip started. My intimacy at this point is in normal life constant with a loving god that I can turn on and off at will. Going into this was very much an act of love. So as I went into this it was like a gentle parent but caressing me inside with the deep love I know so well. It was like going under for surgery and fading away while holding the hand. I saw a cinder block type room and I could see and hear myself pressed all the way to the ceiling. I could go no further. My voice became faded as I drifted away from that room and I could see an empty cinder block room above the one I was in. Then a being of some sort firmly took my arm and started taking me somewhere. We were going really fast a long time and then I found myself alone in the other cinder block room. I then heard the loudest voice I've ever heard repeating the words over and it was reverberating or echo and I also saw the words. I started screaming the words and I got up and was jumping up and down. I had to tell my wife so through much effort of constantly dropping my phone and inability to type I was able to send it and that was around 1 hour later. The trip went on once I settled and it was mostly trying to process it. I think I was given the reason why it seemed I was taken a great distance but what the being was doing was putting me in another time dimension, like I needed to be in the same time as the speaker. Not really too sure really. My throat was hoarse and raw from screaming the words the next day.
Like I said, it was a very spiritual journey and though I'd love to go back, I think I'd still need it to be just as special as this was. I would never go uninvited personally. This mushroom absolutely deserves its mystical reputation. It's the greatest single spiritual event of my 61 years and I've had a lot of events not drug related. I'm still processing the words but for sure my life has changed.
Exp Year: 2016 | ExpID: 109519 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 61 | |
Published: Dec 25, 2016 | Views: 2,451 |
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