DOSE:	15 mg	oral	Pharms - Aripiprazole	(daily)
	75 mg	oral	Pharms - Sertraline
	25 mg	oral	Hydroxyzine
		buccal	Nicotine
		buccal	Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT:

127 lb

I was admitted to the hospital for having delusions two weeks ago. I thought I was Jesus Christ, I thought my parents were robots. I felt high even though I had not taken any drugs and made my parents bring me to the hospital because I thought I had been poisoned.

I was put into the psych ward for my behavior and there I was prescribed Abilify, fifteen milligrams. It made me feel weird for the first few days. I was very hungry and I could not concentrate. I had come to my senses without the aid of the Abilify and I felt that I shouldn't have been made to take it. I had to take it however, because I was under the care of the board of mental health. What that meant for me was that if I did not comply with the treatment as ordered by the psychiatrist I would have to face a panel of people who would decide if I would be what would happen to me. I believe they have the power to force injections and to commit people for long term stays in psychiatric hospitals or similar places. I didn't really understand what the medication was except that it was an antipsychotic. I did not understand how a pill could stop paranoia or delusions.

My delusions did stop but I don't believe it was the pills. During this time I was also prescribed Atarax to take as needed. This seemed to help with the bad effects of the Abilify so I took them as often as I could. Every four hours. I was also chewing nicotine gum.

I was let out of the hospital after one week and I started a partial hospitalization program. The psychiatrist at this program saw that I was diagnosed with depression and prescribed Zoloft. When taking the Zoloft along with the Abilify, my hands would shake. Sometimes my face, and my whole body would shake. This could have been partly because I was smoking and chewing nicotine gum at the same time. For the two days that I took Zoloft and Abilify together I could not concentrate at all, I felt physically ill in my stomach, and I was experiencing shakes.

I did not feel like any of these drugs helped me whatsoever, but again I am no longer experiencing delusions, and I don't like the idea of psychiatric medications anyways. Now just being on the Abilify, my girlfriend says I act like a zombie. I feel like my emotions are severely dampened even on this small dose. I keep telling the people that are in charge of me that I want to live in peace, and un-bothered by them. I want to go meditate. It doesn't seem like a possibility for me to be off of medication at the moment. It doesn't seem like I am being listened to, and I don't understand what will happen to me if I face the board of mental health.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110448
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Oct 11, 2020	Views: 1,682
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