DOSE:		oral	Pharms - Propranolol
	160 ug	sublingual	1P-LSD	(blotter / tab)

BODY WEIGHT:

148 lb

First Time 1p-LSD No Illicit Drug Experience

It was Tuesday 18th July, 2017. I had received two tabs of 1P-LSD and two weeks earlier took ~40ug as a micro/allergy/threshold dose. Basically I wanted to see if I felt anything. I did not. Therefore I thought that perhaps there had been some degration or I’m not too sensitive to it. That’s why I decided to consume the rest of the tabs for my first trip.

I could not include time stamps as time was so distorted and I rarely checked the time so it would be completely made up.

I meditated, lit inscence and turned off the main light in my room. My heart was racing. I didn’t want it to be a problem- a lot of the time my anxiety was over having anxiety. I took a propranolol.

At 20.40 I took the tabs sublingually. In the space of about 15 minutes my nervousness transformed into excitement. I gradually began to feel light and clear headed. I was listening to Interview 2016 by Death Grips and enjoying it.

I got up from my computer chair and got onto my bed- I think to change the song. BAM. All of a sudden it was as if I had been sitting on that bed forever. Time went from unchanged to completely warped and everything felt kind of like a strange dream. I was taken aback by this sudden change and tried to voice call my friend who I planned to call prior. For some reason, it didn’t work.

I went back to my computer chair and time warped again. I was freaked out. Luckily I had no physical anxiety due to the propranolol but all I could think was “I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS MAKE IT STOP” I messaged my friend a lot, repeating phrases such as “this wasn’t lsd” “I’m freaked out” and “how long has it been”. I also spoke to some other people and each conversation was in a different tab and every time I changed tab I completely forgot about the other ones.

My time perception continues to diminish. I ask my friend what time it is and how long it has been. He keeps giving me numbers but they don’t make sense to me and it seems like he is tricking me. It feels as if I am just speaking to a bad robot. I looked at my hand and noticed my wrist was extremely skinny and melting inwards. Other than this, there were no visuals apart from general enhanced acuity.

I realise I’m thirsty. SO THIRSTY. I’m dying of thirst. My glass is empty. I go back to my computer and go back to asking the time. I loop between wanting to know what time it is and that I’m thirsty. This goes on for some time.

Eventually I take my empty mug (with a teabag left in it) to the bathroom. Using the tap was difficult but I finally got some water.

More thought looping over boring stuff ensues.

I’m still thirsty so I get my fruit pot I had prepared beforehand due to hearing that fruit was the only food that tasted good on lsd. I wasn’t hungry but I hoped the juice would help. I clumsily scoop the kiwi, melon, strawberry, grapes and pomegranate seeds into my mouth. They taste slightly metallic and I feel the tang of the kiwi on my tongue but other than that, I didn’t taste much.

I took the fruit to my computer and ate it. I felt as if my edges were melting into my surroundings and the fruit was a part of my mouth. It felt as if I was chewing my own flesh and the pomegranate seeds were bits of my own broken teeth.

Afterwards, I was still peaking hard. I kept going through a few motions in order to remind myself I was still alive/able to feel. I touched my hot lava lamp, pinched my skin and checked how light it was outside.

Around this point I also remember hearing a stranger’s voice coming through my earphones. I look at the other tab and it turned out I had a TheNeedleDrop video playing. The unkind, unknown voice morphed into Anthony Fantano’s.

For a while it felt like I was stuck in that chair for eternity. I was just waiting for the trip to end. I started getting desperate and went to my parents room and woke them up (at 4 am) I was convinced they weren’t real so it wouldn’t matter if I told them I was tripping. My mum looked very old and leathery and uncanny. It felt like I was in an alternate reality or simulation. Very luckily, my parents reacted fine and they had both tripped before so they knew to act kindly. My mum invited me to sit at the edge of their bed so I did. I told them everything including how I got the tabs. I spoke to them untrustingly, with every question I ask being a test to see whether they’d respond like they would usually. To my surprise, they did. I was in awe at how every response made perfect sense- what a neat simulation!

There had still been hardly any visuals until my dad turned the tv on and it all looked kind of like Deep Dream. It was colourful and faces were growing and distorting. It looked like an lsd filter or something. The rest of the room was completely normal. At one point the wardrobe seemed to tint slightly green and red and breathe. It was very interesting to watch.

At this point I was convinced the trip was practically over and that I had literally changed dimension. I asked my dad “so is this it now? Is this life? It’s okay if it is…” and he told me it probably isn’t.

I sat there thinking to myself. Weird words played in my head in a strange voice. “Cheechyi” and “Llhyeoung” are the ones I remember. I knew that because I had heard these words, my reality would never be the same again because I would never forget these words. I started feeling a bit anxious. I really had fucked my life up and now I will have to pretend I’m okay even though everything had changed.

I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My pupils were huge. I looked like a rabid alien. My skin was pale and grey and lacking dimension. My spots were so red and deep. It was a little unnerving but mostly interesting. I didn’t look for too long though.

I went on my ipad and talked to some people. I was completely coherent and fine at this point. I gradually came back to reality. I drew how I looked in the mirror, the spots in the drawing drifted around in the page. I felt really happy. This was at 12 hours after dosing.

The next few days I felt very light and calm. I had no motivation or creativity but it didn’t matter because I could finally relax. Music such as tame impala sounded beautiful and I often got quite introspective.

Since the afterglow ended, life has continued as usual.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110880
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Sep 19, 2017	Views: 5,944
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