DOSE: T+ 0:00		smoked	Cannabis - Hash
T+ 0:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Pregabalin
T+ 0:00	1.25 mg	sublingual	Pharms - Lorazepam
T+ 0:00	repeated	oral	Alcohol - Hard
T+ 0:00	1.25 mg	sublingual	Pharms - Lorazepam
T+ 24:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Pregabalin
T+ 31:00	300 mg	oral	Pharms - Pregabalin

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

10am // After waking up alone for the first time in a long time, I wrote off the day and took 600mg of Pregabalin after my morning smoke wasn’t hitting the spot. I spent the next hour or so crying, waiting for it to kick in, getting gradually more stoned. The hash isn’t great for this kind of thing, I would prefer a stronger herb, it just seems to be enough of a high to kick in a depression.

11am // My mental health isn’t the strongest, so when the Pregabalin wasn’t hitting me as hard as I wanted after an hour or so of panic attacks and sobbing, I put 1.25mg of Lorazepam under my tongue. I stuck on some music and tried to zone out for a while, before realizing I hadn’t fed myself yet and hitting the cupboards. Until 2pm is a blur to be honest, I think I ended up making a lot of sandwiches…

2pm // But not long after that I started to come around from the Pregabalin and the anxiety was returning once again. At this point I was so ready for this day to be done, I just let the vodka flow.

The next few hours were less about getting high for enjoyment, than they were staying high, so I can’t feel and survive the night. I ended up taking 2 X 1.25 Lorazepam, both started under the tongue which seemed to do enough to keep me dosed up in bed.
I know none of this is ideal for a mental health crisis, but these drugs kept me sedated enough so I didn’t hurt myself and to me that’s the most important thing. The Lorazepam under the tongue trick is lovely, I leave it for a couple of minutes then swallow it with a drink.

I somehow stayed up until 7:30 the next morning, I vaguely remember my housemates getting coffee… I then popped another 600mg and cracked open the cans. It’s now 5pm and I’ve just had another 300mg, gonna have some Lorazepam soon and just curl up. Hopefully manage to sleep tonight!

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 112149
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Aug 8, 2018	Views: 2,479
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