DOSE:			NBOH Series	(daily)
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

This is essentially a recollection of my collective experiences with these substances. For reasons, I had access to any variant of the 25-x class at any given point and thoroughly enjoyed collecting different types. I had tons of the 25-c tabs laid out on blotters (and said to be dosed at 1400ug), 25-i laid out on other blotters (around 1200ug if I'm remembering correctly), 25-d laid out around the same dosage as the 25-c, and 25-b in the same range.

It started out innocently enough: I was going to try a single tab one night before school, and I did just that. After ingesting it for the first time (I believe I chose 25-d for the first experience, although it could've been 25-b) I had the most blissful and entertaining experience. I spent the night laughing at things on my computer, watching tv, and also simultaneously watching trippy music videos. It took some hours to wear off but I felt somewhat fine after not sleeping at all that night, and went to school the next day to tell everyone about my amazing experience. I don't quite recall immediately having any negative problems arise from it, but they started to develop after I kept trying it.

Soon after, I decided to try it again inevitably. I tried a different tab, one that was laid with 25-i I believe. This was also fun, but I did the same exact thing: sat there and gawked and bright colors and psychedelic visions while enjoying adult swim and music videos. This started to turn into a nightly routine: get home from class, sleep, wake up at night and take a tab to enjoy the same exact experience. I would repeat this cycle 2-3 nights in a row and then take a break to get some sleep, then just repeat. This lasted for the entirety of my senior year of high school, and a good 2 or 3 months after before I finally flushed all of the rest of it. I took tabs with two different friends on maybe 2-3 different occasions to share the joy, and they turned out to be fun. We would get caught in 'cycles' of talking about the same things, laugh at literally everything, and smoke bowls and relax to some music. The difference between me and them was that they chose to try it once; I was doing this DAILY. Since I was out of school, I could spend time at my job, then dose immediately after and smoke and chill out with friends. I would always have the same experiences, to the point of where I felt like I literally needed this stuff to survive. I would end up putting 2 or 3 in my mouth at a time, then building up saliva for an hour and swallowing all at once. They were hardly doing anything to me because I had built up such a tolerance for every single one of them.

This wasn't all that came of it though. I started losing weight, and FAST. I dropped 40-50 pounds in the span of 4 months, and looked like I virtually had no muscle on me. I began getting tattoos constantly for the sole pleasure of looking at them while tripping and seeing them move around. I would forget thoughts mid-sentence, and even forget names and simple words. I would keep having leg pain every time I would dose (which I later learned was a symptom of severe vasoconstriction) and to this day I still experience it every so often. I would essentially convulse when I was taking them alone and pace around repeatedly, although sometimes I couldn't even get out of my bed.

I was told by friends and family alike that I was starting to lose it, and my own family started believing I was on heroin because of the severe weight loss and need to be out of the house at all times. I was shaking and essentially needing these tabs all the time. The clenching point was when I would look in the mirror and realize how truly awful I was starting to look and act, and decided in the spur-of-the-moment to just flush my remaining ones all at once.

I still have severe memory loss of what happened during that time period. I have also seemed to have forgotten childhood events in my life and have trouble remembering basic things sometimes, although this has gotten better through the years. I now am a junior in college who is actively keeping straight A's and B's, and I recieve therapy sessions to discuss the problems I recieved from all of this usage. I still wouldn't say I'm completely healthy (because I still pretty much refuse to work out) and I still have my issues that developed out of this. I'll list what came out of it both in the short-term and long-term for convenience.

Short-term:
Severe memory loss
Severe weight loss
OCD habits
Addiction to all four chemicals and an increasing tolerance
Insomnia
Severe vasoconstriction
Convulsions
Inability to walk easily
Lack of strength

Long-term:
Memory issues that increasingly get better but will never be what they were
Insomnia problems for 2+ years (although it has become more easy to manage)
Lasting OCD tendencies that have become hard to break
Occasional vasoconstriction
Slight amount of visual static and floaters
Psychedelic visuals when under the influence of ANYTHING (especially weed)
Increasingly dark thoughts
Something resembling split personalities (as I was such a different person when tripping on these substances that it's now hard to look at myself as having one singular personality)

And that's essentially it. This wasn't worth the risk and I now fear that I will develop dementia or something else incredibly early in life. The experiences were not worth the side-effects. It's a miracle I even survived this constant abuse in such high doses. Love your life, you've only got one.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 112341
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Sep 20, 2018	Views: 1,715
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