DOSE: T+ 0:00	3 g	oral	Smarts - Phenibut	(capsule)
T+ 3:00	1 g	oral	Smarts - Phenibut	(capsule)
T+ 4:00	1 g	oral	Smarts - Phenibut	(capsule)
T+ 0:00		oral	Pharms - Paroxetine	(daily)
T+ 0:00		oral	Pharms - Risperidone	(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

215 lb

Positive Phenibut Experience

A little history first. From the ages of 15 to 25 I struggled with severe drug addiction. I used many different drugs from cannabis, opioids, kratom, nutmeg, mushrooms, various blotter tabs, smoked DMT, methamphetamine, MDPV, MDMA, MDA, morning glory seeds, benzodiazepines, alcohol, and countless prescribed medications. At one point I became addicted to phenibut, around 2012. The withdrawals were hellish.

In the year 2015 my first child died shortly after birth. This and my many psychological and spiritual issues resulted in a bad trip from a glitter I believed to be 25-i-nbome. I had a trip about receiving the mark of the beast and this wrecked me for two years. Over the year 2016 I gave up all drug use progressively. I experienced several trip flashbacks which I also to believe were attacks from Satan to obscure my perception of God. It has been a very hard road.

Over the years 2018 and 2019 I have learned more and more about God's grace and have escaped most of the legalistic mentality that has imprisoned me. Finally I can be at peace and stop judging myself for being weak.

Anyway, this leads me to where I am now. It has been 2 years since using any substances to affect my mood other than caffeine, nicotine, and my prescriptions for Risperidone and Paxil. One day on the way to work I decided to pick up some "Sleepwalker" pills and take them while I pulled a 12 hour shift. It was a negligible experience, and God did not seem disappointed in me. So, I decided to order a bottle of Phenibut capsules online and try it again.

The day they came I decided I would try 3 grams and see how it affected me. I took the capsules and ate some Chinese food with my wife and our second son. I didn't feel anything and 3 hours later I took 1 more gram and then an additional 1 gram dose an hour after that.

My family visited for a few hours and we talked about some family issues that we are having with my younger brother who is addicted to opioids. I felt it easier to communicate and enjoyed talking a great deal. A slight entactogenic effect, if you will.
After my parents left a started to feel the effects a great deal more (about 5 hours after taking the first dose). I decided to smoke my pipe and listen to some Skinny Puppy on my porch, after putting my son to bed. I felt really good. My judgment did not seem affected as it did with alcohol. I was not really intoxicated, per say. Just in a really good mood. And really horny, actually.

I listened to some good old school industrial psychedelic music for about an hour then went upstairs to bed. It was all in all a glowing experience. I did experience some nausea that came in waves, though.

Prior to sleeping I meditated for a bit and felt that my thoughts were much clearer. It seemed much of the monkey chatter and ego issues that plague my mind were diminished and I could distinguish the devils accusing attacks. Thus was uncomfortable but I was happy to have this revealed to me as it helps me break free from the bonds of self-judgment.

I slept well. Felt a bit woozy and nauseous in the morning. Also a bit high still. I headed to work for a few hours, and I felt I performed much better than usual. And was also more sympathetic and on top of my game. Afterwards, I headed to help my wife and her co-worker with their cleaning job. We had lunch afterwards, and this really helped some of the residual nausea.
The effects were pretty much gone by 24 hours after my first dose.

All in all a good experience. I would like to use this weekly, but with some experimentation I will see if this is effective or addictive. Not interested at this point in my life in experimenting with anything stronger.

I hope my religious testimony did not offend anyone. But to leave this out of the experience would not be honest. God bless you all. And remember that no matter what you are struggling with, he is not offended or angry with you.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113955
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Jun 22, 2022	Views: 578
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