DOSE: T+ 0:00	32 mg	oral	Methamphetamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 16:00	10 mg	insufflated	Heroin	(powder / crystals)
T+ 21:00	13 mg	insufflated	Heroin	(powder / crystals)
T+ 26:00	15 mg	insufflated	Heroin	(powder / crystals)
T+ 30:00	90 mg	insufflated	Ketamine	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

177 lb

I'm a 21 year old male from Florida, I am unemployed. I am not in college. I have taken dozens of psychoactive drugs ranging from stims, dissos, opiates, the whole jazz over the course of the last 2 years. I have been depressed, unfocused and generally miserable. After researching around about the cognitive boosting effects of meth and upon hearing that it's only one molecule different then normal prescription adderall I decide to go and buy a gram, I go online and purchase a gram alongside a 150mg heroin sample. I have R ketamine already. My goal is to take a small dose of methamphetamine to help me study for a technical certificate.

I wake up at 10am on Tuesday, I eat a nice satisfying meal (two cups of oatmeal, peanut butter, bananas) -- the meth and heroin arrives at around 11:30am, I weigh out the meth and after reading around online a bit I decide I'll take 30mg orally. It ends up being 2mg over when I weigh it, I decide that's okay and put it in a gelatin capsule, I take it at 12:12pm. I was prescribed adderall before and foolishly compared meth to adderall in terms of the potency and figured it wouldn't vary much, big mistake!

I have slight anxiety from taking methamphetamine so I go and take a short bath and relax in my bath tub for about 15 minutes. I start to notice a stimulated feeling as I get out of the bath, my intent is to learn. I immediately go on the internet and download a CompTIA A+ course to study, I slowly start feeling very confident and euphoric, I open up the course material and start working through it, my mind is very sharp and clear but my body feels restless. My heart is beating a bit fast, I feel very thirsty, I get a 1.5 liter of water and drink a good amount of it. I go back to trying to study and for about 20 minutes or so I'm able to study intensely but I stop and have the urge to use the bathroom, I start feeling more anxiety and mildly uncomfortable, it starts to become hard to focus. Why did I take meth? I should research about meth's effects!

I close out of the course material and go to [online sources], I look up various research studies detailing the neuroprotective/neurotoxic properties of meth. I look up average doses. I realize 32mg is a good amount more then a 'therapeutic dose' should be, especially considering I haven't taken stimulants in months and presumably have no tolerance. I look up supplements that can help prevent neurotoxicity and read about magnesium. There's a slight physical discomfort that won't go away, I am incredibly thirsty, but mentally I start feeling incredible. I ask my girlfriend to come walk with me to Walmart, as we're walking I tell her mushy things about how much I love/care about her, usually I'm emotionally numb/blunted but I feel very empathetic and sentimental. We arrive at Walmart and immediately I think about shoplifting, I feel invincible, I can get away with it easily. I go to the supplement aisle and grab magnesium, green tea extract and a huge tub of Mass Gainer Protein. Without thinking twice I walk straight out of Walmart, massive gainer protein in my hand and all.

I walk back home smothering my girlfriend with words of our future plans together, of our life. I get back home and take the magnesium supplement. I have a personal home gym, I look around online and see that people don't recommend working out while on meth. I still do it however, I feel incredibly powerful. I go into the gym and benchpress and deadlift more then I ever could, it hurts a little bit but I push through, when I stop I notice an incredible pounding in my chest. My body is crying out in pain, why did I think it was a good idea to work out on meth? My heart feels like it's going to explode. I lay down and try not to move for several minutes, I drink a liter of water and give myself 10 minutes to relax before I stand up.

I go back upstairs and I play several hours of Smite together with my girlfriend until she goes to sleep, it's now midnight and I haven't slowed down in the slightest. I invite one of my friends to play Halo Reach with me online, we play for several hours until he too goes to sleep, before I realize it it's 4am and everyone is asleep. I am wired, my heart is still beating fast, I don't feel the slightest desire to sleep. It's been nearly 16 hours since I've taken that dose of meth, how long is it going to last I think to myself? I remember that I have that sample of #3 heroin, I figure it will put me to sleep. I weigh out 10mg and snort it, I lay back in my bed and try to close my eyes and sleep while listening to music. I don't feel the heroin, I'm still stimulated, I try to sleep for half an hour until I get back up and log into Smite and play a few hours of it again.

It's 9am. I look in the mirror, I look pale and tired. I feel energetic however mentally even though my body is begging for rest, I weigh out another dose but this time a bit more at 13mg. I snort it, I go on 4chan and browse r9k for a few hours discussing drugs with other anonymous posters. 3 hours past and it's 12, I'm still posting on imageboards, listening to music, incapable of sleeping. I'm thoroughly engaged in conversations with anonymous strangers attempting to answer their questions about drugs, if I don't know the answer I research it and read studies and try to help them. It's been 24 hours since I've taken meth. I do not feel tired.

At 2pm I decide to take another dose, this time 15mg of heroin. I haven't noticed any euphoria from it, is the meth masking it? I start feeling incredibly hungry and go downstairs and eat ice cream, candy bars and general junk food. My body is craving simple carbs. It seems like my mind is overactive, as if I have too much dopamine, I open up various tabs on my computer and browse around imageboards and on the internet switching between things rapidly managing several different conversations. How the hell can meth last this long? I spend hours doing this and look down at the time, it's 6pm! Why the hell can't I go to sleep? It's been 30 hours since I took 32mg of meth orally at this point, I decide to snort ketamine in the hopes that it'll help me go to sleep seeing as heroin seems to do nothing.

I weigh out 90mg of ketamine and snort it. I feel the typical rush of ketamine but my heart starts beating irregularly and fast, it makes me anxious. I think of the drug interactions and of me dying in great vivid detail over and over again, it feels like I'm on the border of psychosis. Everything seems blurry, detached, sped up, uncomfortable, I should have let the meth leave my system by itself. I lay in bed, totally still, I don't wish to move because I have this thought in my head that if I move my body it'll trigger a series of events that will lead to my death. I only watch as my surroundings warp without daring to move my head an inch. This is at 8pm.

After two hours of laying in bed in agony my mind starts to relax itself, possibly from the ketamine's effect leaving my system. I'm physically and mentally tired. My body demands rest. I force my eyes to close and I finally manage to drift off to sleep, I sleep until 10am the next morning. Much to my surprise, I wake up feeling fine. I'm not depressed and I'm not craving any sort of meth/heroin after the experience. In a way I'm glad that experience happened, else I think I would have sensitized myself to two very harmful and addictive substances. I threw my meth and leftover heroin and it gave me a very cathartic feeling.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114100
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Aug 18, 2020	Views: 1,788
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