DOSE: T+ 0:00	100 mg		Amphetamines
T+ 2:30	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Diazepam	(pill / tablet)
T+ 2:50	joints/cigs	smoked	Cannabis	(flowers)

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

Setting: my parent’s house. I’m 19 and just finished my first year of uni. My first drug experience was when I 13 and smoked weed for the first time. I’ve been a somewhat avid drug user from about 16 onwards. In order from first tried to last the list goes: weed, MD, pills, ket, coke, nos, acid, 2-CB, amphetamine, DXM, diazepam and finally Xanax. And for all my endeavours, I’ve never had a bad trip or any sort of bad experience that I can remember.

Then it comes to benzos and I am well and truly lost. I could not tell accurately, or even loosely come to think, what they’re about. In fact, for about 90% of the time, I can’t tell anything. Complete blackout. So the Purpose: To form an opinion on benzo’s by logging my experience whilst on them in real-time

00:00 - I have dropped the 10mg pill of Valium and am gonna roll myself a standard half-gram joint. Also worth mentioning that I had 100mg of speed about two and a half hours ago which I’m still obviously feeling so it’ll be interesting to see how or if they synergise. Been feeling slightly anxious and irritable last few days, probably because of my assignment.

00:20 - Finished smoking the joint, feeling slightly high. Nothing out of the ordinary yet, except a feeling of warmth in my body which is nice, especially since its cold out and I’m only wearing shorts and a t-shirt.

00:30- The same feeling of warmth all through my body, I would normally suspect that was just the speed but its less sweaty and more like a nice campfire warm.

00:45- Watching Netflix easily enough, feel very relaxed and a lot less is going on in my head, my thoughts are almost non-existent and worries feel very far away and removed from me. My mood feels slightly flat but in a way that feels a lot better than it sounds, never overly happy or giggly but just a strong sense of calmness in both my body and mind.

01:00- I hadn’t gotten out of my chair for what was approaching an hour so I decided to leave outside and go back to my room. Very happy to be in my bed with my quilt, my mattress feels more comfy than usual and as though I’m sinking into it.

01:30- Again, very similar feelings of tranquillity, as though my mind is in a state of perfect equilibrium. Although never creating a feeling of euphoria or a change in perception in the way that other drugs are able to, there is something to be said about the comfort that this has provided me.

2:00- I think the effects have plateaued now or maybe even a while ago but I think this has been a successful experiment I feel like I get the appeal of benzos now when I didn’t really at the beginning of this journey. I think I’ve come to realise that I was looking at them from the completely wrong angle. This didn’t feel like a high for me as such, or at least definitely not in the traditional sense but I did feel a lot more peace of mind after taking a vallie than I usually do in my day-to-day life which was enjoyable.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 114657
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Sep 11, 2023	Views: 128
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