DOSE: T+ 0:00	500 mg	oral	Pharms - Divalproex	(daily)
T+ 0:00	150 mg	oral	Pharms - Trazodone	(daily)
T+ 0:00	15 mg	oral	Pharms - Buspirone	(daily)
T+ 0:00	10 mg	oral	Melatonin	(daily)
T+ 0:00	750 mg	oral	Smarts - Phenibut	(capsule)
T+ 6:30	27 mg	oral	Pharms - Methylphenidate
T+ 8:00	4 mg	sublingual	Pharms - Buprenorphine
T+ 8:00	1 mg	sublingual	Naloxone
T+ 12:00	27 mg	oral	Pharms - Methylphenidate
T+ 12:00	1.25 g	oral	Smarts - Phenibut
T+ 12:00	30 mg	sublingual	Pharms - Diazepam
T+ 12:00	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Diazepam
T+ 15:45	10 mg	insufflated	Pharms - Diazepam
T+ 0:00	repeated	oral	Caffeine	(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

194 lb

~4:30pm, awoke after missing several alarms, and ingested 27 mg Methylphenidate, orally, (54 mg Concerta tablet split in half) before heading to work; arrived at work at 4:45, 15 minutes later than scheduled, but my manager was neither angry nor disappointed, seeing as the previous night I worked from 10:00pm - 7:30am and had to cook food for myself when I got home, feed my dog, give him his first dose of the day of 2.5 mg of CBD for his seizure disorder (he takes two 2.5 mg CBD doses a day for a total of 5 mg a day), and then having to take him outside to urinate and defecate, and then having to clean my mess from cooking, then smoked one Newport 100’s cigarette, leading to me falling asleep at ~10:00am-10:15am that morning, after consuming one 500 mg Divalproex ER tablet, orally, one Trazodone 150 mg tablet, orally, one Paliperidone 3 mg ER tablet, orally, one Benztropine 1 mg tablet, orally, one Buspirone 15 mg tablet, orally, and one Melatonin 10 mg orally disintegrating tablet (all taken daily per psychiatrist’s orders) as well as three Phenibut HCL 250 mg capsules, totaling 750 mg Phenibut HCL, also orally, the latter of which induced a deep and restful sleep, causing me to sleep through the many alarms I had set fifteen minutes apart from each other starting at 3:00pm and ending at 4:15pm until at 4:30pm I realized the time and rushed to put on my work clothes and leave for work.

~5:00pm ingested one 250ml Coca-Cola Energy (80mg caffeine) at work now, and very slightly beginning to feel the come up of stimulant effects, though not very pronounced, but enough to remain alert enough to complete and enjoy basic tasks (usually I work the overnight shift and as previously stated, I worked the overnight shift the night before).

~5:30-6:00pm ingested two Suboxone strips (2mg buprenorphine / 0.5mg naloxone each) (also taken daily per psychiatrist’s orders as a medication assisted treatment to combat opioid and opiate cravings as well as to treat chronic pain due to rotatory scoliosis and fibromyalgia). Though the prescription is written as to dissolve one film under the tongue twice daily, there is no specification as to when and how far apart to space out dosages, so I believe that taking the two films simultaneously as long as I did not exceed the two strips per day and the fact that I had slept through most of the day, that it would be safe to take the two dosages simultaneously seeing as I missed the morning dose. And then consequently smoked one Newport 100’s cigarette.

After about 30 minutes following the Suboxone dose I was feeling slightly sedated but free of pain and opioid cravings, though some of the classical opioid effects such as itching, constricted pupils, warmth emanating from my body, and psychological feelings of well-being and even slight euphoria i found I still had enough energy from my cigarette and half (27 mg) of Concerta from earlier to continue my responsibility to stocking to go largely unimpeded.

~7:30pm, I finished my stocking responsibilities, and turned my car on while I smoked one Newport 100’s cigarette, waiting for my car to warm up. At around this time I called my girlfriend (G) and we talked for about a half an hour, eventually our conversation turns to us talking about some of my mental illnesses, including my eating disorder and the time I spent in a residential facility, in my home state, addressing this issue, and the time I’ve spent in a residential rehab out of state, then we start talking about a really good precooked macaroni and cheese we had both tried two days ago that was phenomenal, prompting me to eat it again tonight for dinner.

~8:00pm, not much of note, I prepared the Mac and cheese in the microwave while still talking to G. I sent her a picture of it over Snapchat which she had asked me to do, and we said goodnight to each other, how we love each other and wish each other sweet dreams. I also asked her if she had taken any of her phenibut, and how it was for her. G told me she took nine 250 mg capsules of Phenibut HCL, totaling 2.25 grams of Phenibut HCL, as well as a cup of coffee to potentiate her high. She of course doesn’t do this every day, and she explained that the combo of the Phenibut and the coffee made her energetic yet sedated, lifted her mood and caused a light sense of euphoria and induced a strong urge to dance. I asked G to try and compare her phenibut high to something to see if I may have experienced something similar from another drug. My phenibut experience is limited to potentiating Buprenorphine nods and physical and mental euphoria or if taken on its own with the potentiation effects of coffee, the most I get is a slight uplift in mood with mild sedation. Of course all drugs affect people differently. G did not respond, I assume she fell asleep due to the Phenibut HCL and her having to work at 4:00 am to 1:00 pm on 1/12/21. With her no longer responding I quickly finished eating my macaroni and cheese and drank ~half of a 16 Fluid Ounce (1 Pint) can of Mountain Dew Amp: Game Fuel (Charged Berry Blast flavor) with 90 mg of caffeine per can, so I consumed ~45 mg more of caffeine, more or less.

~9:00pm, started reading diazepam experience reports, seeing as I had ten 10 mg generic diazepam tablets in my possession, but could not keep my eyes open, closed my eyes ~9:30pm and rested them until around ~10:00pm

~10:00pm, I decided to take 40mg of Valium (this is a high dose, and I would not recommend anyone try this high of a dose on their first attempt, especially considering the other substances I had mixed with the diazepam, I just happen to have a high tolerance for benzos) with the intention of testing how relaxed I could get, and so I ingested 27 mg Methylphenidate, orally, (second half of 54 mg Concerta tablet split in half,) along with five 250 mg Phenibut HCL capsules orally, totaling 1.25 grams of Phenibut HCL, and 40 mg of Valium, 30 mg of which was sublingual (they weren’t sublingual tablets, I just held them under my tongue until they were mostly dissolved and swallowed the remaining matter), 10 mg of which was orally and washed this all down with the remainder of my Mountain Dew Amp: Game Fuel (Charged Berry Blast) for another ~45 mg of caffeine.

For the first hour the Valium seemed to be relaxing my muscles, relieving any anxiety present, and generally calming my mind while lightly impairing fine motor functions, though I am still able to type perfectly fine, and walk semi-straight, I would not get behind the wheel of a vehicle in my condition, however, seeing as my muscles felt jelly-like, my legs were weak, and my reaction time was most likely very slowed, though I did not feel that it was, but knowing how benzodiazepines have the effect of making one feel less inebriated than one truly is, I assumed this was the case in this experience as well.

~11:00pm, I feel light and carefree, chainsmoked two Newport 100’s cigarettes in rapid succession, have been peeing every 20-30 minutes and am generally feeling not necessarily euphoria in the classical sense of the definition, but euphoria in a sense that I’m happy to just be and experience whatever stimulus is currently available, whether it be reading more experience reports, listening to music, for which I now am in a state of extreme music appreciation, or watching YouTube, as most things that I may have not found compelling or interesting in the past are now extremely interesting.

~1:05am this feeling that has produced very mild euphoria in a different way than is usually thought of is beginning to wane, and I am deciding that I will now insufflate one more 10 mg tablet of diazepam and assess the effects it has on restoring the pseudo-euphoria, and once its effects have been assessed over the course of 1.5-2 hours, I will give in to my natural urge to fall asleep.

~1:30am, I prepare to crush the tablet between a folded up sheet of 8.5” by 11” standard printer paper, so as not to lose any substance while crushing the tablet. Using my phone to crush it initially and then crushing the crystals into a fine powder using an expired insurance card, I successfully grind the tablet into a very fine powder. I then use the same insurance card to scrape the fine dust into a line.

~1:45am, by the time I have completed this process the time is approximately 1:45 in the morning at which point I pull out a 5 Euro bill, and snort the 10 mg line in one go. Immediately I am hit with a wave of relaxation and the pseudo-euphoria I’ve previously mentioned, though it’s not as strong as it felt previously during this experience, I assume from being a smaller dosage, and having to wait for the drip for the full effects to become apparent. I drink water and smoke two cigarettes in order to facilitate a faster drip as well as harshly inhaling through my nostrils to force the substance down my throat, but still the effects only seem mild compared to previous RoA’s I’ve attempted tonight. However music appreciation is slightly increased from before and I’m glad I decided to attempt this final dose before calling it a night. All in all, not my favorite benzo or my favorite experience but I’m glad i at least tried it.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115113
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Feb 23, 2021	Views: 784
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