DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 bump	insufflated	DPT	(powder / crystals)
T+ 24:00	2 bumps	insufflated	DPT	(powder / crystals)
T+ 0:00		oral	Pharms - Alprazolam

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

This trip report is about a very irresponsible behaviour I had only a few months after I discovered psychedelics. Psychedelics only had been positive experiences for me until then and I didn't understand what the big deal was about set, setting, etc. I already had LSD 6 times and while I had "uncomfortable" trips with thought loops, paranoia etc. the overall experience was very positive. I also had dissociative several times, but I never tried anything more powerful than that (in particuliar I never tried DMT) and I didn't imagine what a "breakthrough" was like.

In particular, prior to this trip, I had a couple of very powerful and therapeutic mystical experiences on LSD. I was going through a divorce and these experiences very extremely positive for me. I have done many things I was not proud of, for which I needed forgiveness and a new start. While I was never a religious person before, LSD allowed me to suddenly feel the love of God (as in "the first cause") and His forgiveness. It made me feel as part of a Whole, where there can be no Evil. But the LSD trips were so long that I wondered if I could not find another substance that could allow me to have the same type of experience in a shorter timeframe, as I felt I still needed some therapeutic trips to get rid of all the hate and pain I accumulated over the years. That's how I found DPT.

I took DPT twice, two nights in a row. The first night, I tried to smoke or vape the thing but couldn't. The tutos were too complicated to follow and I was too impulsive. So I decided to try intranasal. I tried one large bump, maybe 100mg, and barely felt anything. Some euphoria, a nice, if erotic, sensation going through my body. Then I went to bed. And suddenly, i saw a being going through my door, walking right through the room and disappearing through the wall. The being was a tall fly-man, all thin, black skinned with bright red eyes. A couple of days before I had seen the first episode of Rick and Morty, where they battle similar fly men, and there was no doubt, this was the same being.

What was really weird about this experience, that lasted only a few seconds, is first that I was not sure that I "really saw it", I though maybe I was just pretending to myself that I saw it, which is weird. The second thing that was very weird is that I am a very rational person, I knew I had taken a hallucinogen, and still, I was convinced that the being that I just saw was "real". The DPT just "opened a third eye", "made me see another dimension", the fly man always was there, but now the DPT "allowed me to see it". This is what I felt. It was very strange because I was certain that what I saw was a real, otherdimensional being.

The next day, I talked about this underwhelming experience to my friends. "The fly men say hi to you" I said, laughing. For all I knew, I now understood that there are other dimensions, and in one of those dimensions, these fly people do their life, minding their own business.

The second night I decided to try two bumps. I almost tried three but a moment of wisdom made me stop at two. Probably 200mg. Oh God was I not prepared. I'm writing two years later and the experience of what happened next is still so vivid in my mind. In a word, it was traumatizing.

Fifteen minutes after the ingestion, I start hallucinating. These are the most beautiful hallucinations I have ever had. Every object becomes shining enveloped in a halo, and I feel that I am in a futuristic videogame. Waw I am so happy. I go to bed and start looking at the wall. The hallucinations becomes more and more powerful. Motifs on the wall start moving and I sense an Evil presence. I panic. Objects start moving and I start thinking : what if I never come down ? What if I can never see the world right again ? What I have done ? Have I broken my brain ? The wall has a mural with motifs that start looking like skulls and spikes. The spikes turn and turn in a circle until they form something like a gigantic mouth with hundred of teeth. I am going to die of fear. I can hear my heart beating. And that's when he appears again. The fly man. But this is not a nice, casual extra-terrestrial being from Rick and Morty. Not at all, I was completely mistaken. This is a Demon. The Lord of the Flies, Beelzebub. I am paralyzed in fear.

The demon and I become instantly transported in the gigantic mouth. Then I can no longer see my room. We arrive in another world, his world, which I can only describe as Hell. Fire, sand, rocks. It is burning. I am dead. I no longer know who I am, what I am doing here. Time stops and the demon shows me what seems like thousand of pictures of horrors : tortures, dismemberment, decapitations, burning bodies of humans. All of those go very fast. At a specific moment I see images flashing and I tell myself "this is metempsychosis". I don't know why I thought that. It's like I am trapped in the Hell of every culture on earth.

After this is all over I find myself lying on the ground in the desert, the fly demon standing tall at my foot. The sky is red, there is a grey mountain far away. I am not sure what the demon wants to tell me because he does not speak but I know he wants to show me his world. Here war is always raging. These powerful beings battle with each other. There is a town far away, and I see the town exploding, as if it was nuked by a ray of white fire. I see a red dragon, the same as in the famous painting by William Blake, flying in the sky. This doesn't make any sense, I tell myself. Why ? Why would God create demons? God loves us, why would he create evil? I sense their power. They are so much more powerful than us. It is as if the demon is saying "you are mere insects to us, you humans are nothing".

And then the war calms down. Silence. The demon looks at me. I am still lying on the ground. He directs his right hand toward my body. And I feel that I know what he is thinking : "because you used my power, I am going to take your body".

My arm start moving on its own. I feel the demon trying to enter my body and possess me. My whole body starts twitching. I strike the bed with my right arm a couple of times to check that I can still control it. This is the end for me. I try to get my two hands close to each other but it is very difficult to move them. When my two hands finally touch, I do the sign of the cross. I don't know why I did that, it is the first time in my life that I do something like that. Suddenly a white light appears in the sky and the demon is destroyed. I am saved.

I see my room again. No more hallucinations. I feel very frightened. I get up and throw up, vowing to never touch this satanic substance again. I swallow a couple of xanax.

For the next days, I was regularly watching over my shoulder to see if he wasn't here. It took me 4 days to accept that the demon was not "real". I threw the DPT and two years later I have never touched this product again and stuck to LSD and other softer psychedelic. My behavior has also changed a lot I have become a very pro-social person whereas I was slightly anti-social before, and I think this trip had a lot to do with it.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 115552
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 36
Published: Sep 13, 2021	Views: 1,313
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