DOSE:

300 mg

oral

Pharms - Bupropion

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

136 kg

I was offered a single dose of a common antidepressant medication by a friend who's relative (and supplier) had found its effects lacking. The medication, marketed as Wellbutrin, contains as the active ingredient bupropion hydrochlouride, and the variant I was given was a 300mg tablet of generic, time-release bupropion hydrochlouride.

I was unsure of what to expect, but because this friend has been my primary introduction to recreational drugs, I expected some recreationally-relevant effects. I popped the tablet as normal, while my friend bit into it, and grimaced for about two minutes straight at the taste. I have been diagnosed with depression for some time, and it strongly affects my daily functioning, but I have refused to take medication for my condition. Despite this medication hesitancy, I felt that the bupropion may be a useful test of the effects of antidepressants. Because of the poor recommendation from my friend, and the knowledge that some antidepressants took weeks to have an effect, I expected no noticeable effect, at most some sulbutiamine-like clarity of mind. I went home about an hour-and-a-half later having felt no effect.

At home, all I did for about another hour was scroll through social media with some music on in the background. I found myself after that time subtly tapping along to the music, and moving my body to the rhythm. This is unusual for me. I was happy. I thought, "hey, the antidepressant is working!" I sent a message to that effect to my friend.

My mood climbed steadily for thirty minutes, and the music became more enjoyable. I wrote about a chapter of a book I've been working on, and felt amazing. Everything I did was interesting again, and I felt content simply to sit and work, listen to music, and exist. At the peak of this experience, there were waves of euphoria not comparable to any drugs I've had before.

I bought an entire bottle of the drug from the aforementioned relative of my friend. I took another dose, albeit at 2:00 PM this time as opposed to 8:00 PM. I had the same feeling of euphoria, enjoyment, contentment, happiness, and even the same reaction to music. But this time, it was not late at night and the time-release nature of the drug made the effects peak around the time I'd taken it the other day. The after-effects were therefore at their midway point or thereabouts as I tried to sleep, and I had incurable insomnia the entire night. I laid in my bed and stared at the dark ceiling all night, and did not sleep at any point for any amount of time.

I took another dose yesterday, and experienced the same euphoria, again with mild insomnia, but this time I was able to sleep. I took another today, and felt the same euphoria. It confuses me that I seem to be among the only people who experience this effect. But I'm not complaining. I'm going to ask my psychologist for a script next week.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115644
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Jun 7, 2023	Views: 1,666
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