DOSE: T+ 0:00	450 mg	oral	DXM	(gel tab)
T+ 1:30	3 bowls	smoked	Cannabis	(flowers)

BODY WEIGHT:

165 lb

At the time, my drug experiences consisted of cigars a few times, alcohol many times, cannabis daily, salvia a couple times, psilocybin, LSD, MDMA once, mescaline once, 4-ACO-DMT, and finally DXM once. This would be my second experience with DXM.

This was in the summer of 2017. My second year of college had ended and I had started spending time with a classmate I was fond of and who would later become my girlfriend. We'll call her Bee. On this particular day, Bee had her younger brothers in town and was going to take them home two hours away in a beach town. She invited me along to show me where she grew up and I agreed to come along.

Having enjoyed DXM once I was eager to try it again. For some reason I wanted to do it on this day. I wouldn't be leaving until 2pm, so I had time to trip. I hadn't obtained it yet and it was already morning. I think maybe around 10am was when I went and purchased 2 bottles of gel capsules, each containing 15 capsules of 15mg Dextromethorphan HBr. I planned to take all of it at 450mg. I had enjoyed powerful effects from this dose on the prior experience. I also grabbed a drink which I believe was carbonated.

As soon as I was out of the store I went somewhere out of sight and started swallowing. The carbonated beverage with the plasticky gel caps was an atrocious combination. This was about 10am, which gave me a full 4 hours before I would be picked up for a road trip. I should be on the comedown when she picks me up. What was I thinking?

I hopped in my car to drive about 20 minutes to my Mom's house where I was living for the next couple months. I arrived and she was at work. Nobody else was gone either. This was perfect. I don't really remember what I did while waiting for the comeup, but in those days I hated waiting for drugs to take affect and would have anxiety until it finally kicks in. The DXM began to take affect around 11:30 and I felt completely shitfaced. As it kicked in I felt like I was becoming very drunk very quickly, as if I had chugged half a bottle of liquor. I grabbed my pipe and headed into the backyard.

As it kicked in I smoked probably about half a gram of cannabis in around three bowls. As the effects intensified, I began to feel as if my body was swinging back and forth like I was on a playground swing after someone pushed the fast-forward button. It was dizzying at first, but as I became more disconnected from my sense of gravity and my sense of self, I found the feeling euphoric. At this point I started having visions. They were like a dream sort of. One I remember vividly is I closed my eyes and was suddenly at my Therapist's office with the view of the mountains from his window. I was describing to him my experience on DXM. I would later tell him that I had this vision in a session the following week.

After smoking weed and dissociating from reality into a dreamscape, I put on some music and just vibed. My favorite album at the time was The Wall by Pink Floyd and that's likely what I listened to. Suddenly, I get a text. It's 1:15pm "On my way" it reads. Fuck. I'm still completely trashed and incapable of ordinary social interaction at this point. I have no clue what I need to leave, let alone want to leave at all. I panicked, but the panicking felt so distant that I wasn't too uncomfortable. I waited outside for her to show up.

She finally does and I do my very best to avoid a complete robowalk to her car. I feel my performance was piss poor due to my lack of prior planning, though nobody commented that I looked outrageous so maybe it was fine. Bee's younger brothers, D and R, were 10 and 8 years old, sitting in the back seat. This was my first meeting with them. I said hello, and then stayed quiet for most of the two hour drive. I was in fear of being discovered. I didn't want anyone to know I was a robot! I did my best to just completely dissociate and appear as though I was sleeping. At some point, Bee was pulled over for speeding. We were on the Red Wood Highway so naturally the sheriff avoided the driver side window and came to my window instead. Completely lacking normal functions as I was, I froze. Didn't say a word, didn't move. The sheriff's presence was extremely uncomfortable.

We finally drop off her brothers at their grandmother's house. As we get out of the car Bee and R go straight to the door and I step out to strech my legs. D was removing things from the car and I was alone with him for a moment. "It was nice to meet you" he says. "You too." "It was, Awkward" he says as he walks away. I did appreciate his honesty.

Bee returns to the car and wants to show me her Dad's house, her childhood home. As we walk in, the entry room is covered in a tiled white floor. It appears extremely strange for some reason, and I feel very tall and as if my legs are 10 feet long. In the backyard I meet her cat (this cat would later fall in love with my brother). Bee takes me to a drive-through and we order carne asada fries. Imagine nachos with salsa, gauc, everything on it plus carne asada steak. But with fries instead of chips. I was starving and ate my entire portion and a little of hers. We sat in her car overlooking the ocean for a while. I was starting to slowly return to normal and watching the sunset brought me a lot of peace and happiness. I don't really remember what the rest of the night was like. While it wasn't a complete catastrophe, knowing the long duration of DXM I could've planned the trip for another day.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 115760
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Sep 10, 2023	Views: 131
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