DOSE:

25 g

oral

Amanitas - A. muscaria

(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

Amanita Muscaria, Time Loop

I was getting into Amanita Muscaria, as I've been trying to find medication for Schizophrenia I've been trying to heal, and have achieved enormous effects with fasting and urine therapy. My history of tripping include LSD, Semilanceata with MAOI (gummihuasca) and also combinating with NBOME, quite hardcore trips back then.

So first I made tincturez which was lame, but eased the nervous system, then I made another batch with milder temperature, and made tea from 15g dry, and I just slept well and it made my body feel extremely good. So then I thought it was not enough, I decided to enhance the experience to 25g next night with the tea.

I made the tea combined with milk and honey, and it was good. I couldnt expect such trip, suddenly lying on bed, my TV was on, and there were this TV reality show about police giving breath to unconscious people, at some point I woke into the reality that the scene had repeated multiple times, like 10-20. I realised my brains was looping a memory they received recently, I was inside my brain, locked in, I kind of was scared, that now I'm going to die, my brains are bugging, and making last resort before they shut off. At some point though, the scenes continued, and the cops on the TV said this individual aint gonna make it alive, its too late, somehow I also imagined that these cops were inside my house trying to wake me up, though then I realised that they could not even get in, as my doors are double locked, so I would surely die in unconscious state.

At some point I stood up, and realised holy shit, I got out of the loop, I'm alive, still I was not sure about if it was just a projection of mind, how could I prove myself it was not? I tried to get out of my house to search reaction, which would not repeat same patterns, somehow I felt how all my body's reactions were really slow, and I was thinking that these processes are the meaning of life, but at the same time useless, pointless and equals suffering, so I was locked inside my house. I thought all my life I've been waiting for this, and I had to get out, so I thought I'm gonna throw my living room table out of the balcony window, to get out, for gods sake. I did not succeed, the glass were hard as fuck. Then I tried to proof my self doing something unsimiliar, like drinking tap water, I usually distill it, so I succeeded to break my tint [?], and drank while it was sharp and could have sliced my cheek out, glad I didnt.

Then again I was thinking about the point in life, and it was the breath, so the voice said, breath, so again I was thinking that people were trying to wake me up, like giving me this fake breath to get me conscious. I tried it, and was waiting to wake up from the "dream". Then suddenly I tried to open the door again, and all suddenly, it was just so easy. I had to get contact to something which is living, so its not my mind projecting something inorganic, so I had to head to the closest shop nearby in middle of night with t-shirt on. I was so happy, bit trippy as hell, and it went quite well, when I came back, I was quite sure I'm not dead. I came back home to call ambulance so they could check me. I left cell phone and keys at home, and doors all open, to go see the ambulance guy. They thought I was fine, but I forgot that I left keys and phone home, so I were looking them at the yard for 4 hours, and visiting in nearby buildings trying to get contact to people. This ambulance was about 1-2am, and at 7am in morning I somehow woke up that I've been wandering the whole night in the yard.

These shrooms fucked me up so bad, and I was not aware how strong they can be, and this story cant even explain the deepest feelings of the mindfuck it caused. Otherwise I felt great after the trip, I mean always after you think you die or died, and didnt, makes you feel awesome.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115834
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Oct 14, 2021	Views: 597
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