DOSE:	25 - 60 mg	oral	Deschloroketamine	(powder / crystals)
	0.5 mg	oral	Clonazolam	(powder / crystals)
	200 - 300 ug	oral	Flunitrazolam	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

60 kg

I've tried a lot of drugs, one reason for that is because I'm into chemistry and could make a lot of them myself. However, there were still many drugs that were too hard for me to synthesize, like beta-keto-arylcyclohexylamines, so I had to order them online. The only arylcyclohexylamine I've used and also abused before was PCE, which is insanely easy to make and just as potent as PCP.

One day I decided to order 2g deschloroketamine from an online vendor. It arrived 4 days later, it was a crystalline, slightly off white powder. I took 25mg of it in a capsule and not even 10 minutes later it hit me pretty strongly while talking with my mom. I got the dissociation I was quite familiar with from PCE, it increased rapidly and reality started to feel very weird. I quickly went to my bedroom where I enjoyed the effects, I loved it, more then PCE. Unlike PCE it also felt quite sedative and had a calmness to it. I felt very free and all of life's problems became very small and felt very manageable. It was the typical optimistic feeling I got from dissociatives, things that seem overwhelming in the sober state suddenly weren't such a big problem anymore , and I could easily think of ways to solve my problems.

The effects peaked at about 20 to 30 minutes and started to decrease quite fast at around an hour after dosing. For the next 2 hours I still felt quite funny, when I was typing I used words or phrases which are not typical for me. It felt like my writing was from a different person. 3 hours after dosing I was pretty much sober again, which surprised me, because people say DCK lasts around 6 hours. From my experience, PCE lasts about 6 hours, DCK didn't even last half as long for me. I even thought they might have sent me the wrong compound, but after trying it again years later I know it was DCK.

I already knew DCK was one of my favourite drugs and I started using it daily. This caused me to feel a bit off some days, it's hard to say what was off, but I knew that from PCE which also made me feel off while being sober quite often, even resulting in 2 psychotic episodes lasting about 2 weeks each. DCK felt like it would be much less likely to cause that.

I remember one day I got a phone call for a job interview while under the influence of DCK. I was very confused when I answered the call, but I somehow managed to seem normal (at least I think). They invited me to an interview and after the call ended I got quite worried. I had no idea who called me and had no idea what the address I have to go was that they told me in the call. I also had no idea what number that was and what kind of job this is, I felt very confused. Luckily my mom knew the address, since she often sends job applications for me.

I also remember on another day after I had an interview in the employment agency my mom and I drove to a McDonalds on the way home. I took my cola I ordered home and when I got in my room I would dissolve about 25mg of DCK in the cola and drink it. It would relieve my stress I had from the employment agency and fill me with optimism about my life. However, the optimism would always disappear when the drug wore off and leave me feeling just like before. Often times I would take another dose 3 hours later just to feel good about my life for a little bit longer.

Unlike other drugs like benzos, DCK didn't make me not care about my problems, it actually filled me with motivation to do something about them. Often times I made plans in my head about how to solve them because I felt like I could, it was very empowering.

I also got 250mg of Clonazolam and Flunitrazolam each in that order (which was stupid, because I was in rehab for benzos 6 months ago). One day I tried 0.5mg of Clonazolam which was very strong and I went to sleep an hour after dosing. When I woke up I still felt strongly sedated. I had to go to school that day, and on the way there the Clonazolam wore off. But in class I started getting very restless and anxious, it was so bad I just had to leave and on the way home I had intense anxiety, I felt like I was going insane. From someone on Reddit I learned that this was rebound anxiety which often occurs with using high doses of benzos. In desperation I measured about 200 to 300ug of Flunitrazolam and dosed it in hopes I could sleep that off. This didn't help, so I thought since this is caused by too much glutamate I just use a drug that blocks glutamate, like DCK. I tried it and it worked great, it completely relieved the crippling anxiety. I binged that night on the DCK and in the morning I felt okay again.

I never took Clonazolam again, but I decided to try the Flunitrazolam again. I found that 200ug were a good dose that didn't gave me rebound anxiety, it felt about as strong as 1mg xanax. I started taking it regularly, often together with DCK. My mom said that I look drunk while on these two drugs (which makes sense, because besides being a GABA agonist, alcohol is also an NMDA antagonist like DCK). Over a few weeks I had to increase the DCK dose, taking 60mg towards the end to get the same effects. The 2g DCK lasted me about a month, I missed it a lot after the last dose and thought about ordering more.

I was surprised when I found out that most people aren't too fond of DCK, a lot even saying it sucks and is boring. I didn't find this to be the case at all, I had some very weird and interesting experiences with it. It also made me very disinhibited (PCE often did that too), I would do things on DCK I normally wouldn't do, like drinking alcohol (I was in that rehab for alcohol and benzos). On DCK nothing really seemed dangerous, it often would remove the caution I normally have.

About 2 years later I got to try cocaine for the first time, but I was very scared of it because of the heart attack risk. When I snorted a bit I just felt paranoid about my heart for the next hour. I also got a bit of DCK with the cocaine, and a few times while I was coming down from DCK I decided to snort a line of cocaine, since I didn't feel scared in that state.

A few months ago I also got to try regular Ketamine, I though it would be like DCK but it's very different, it feels much more....mystical. I still couldn't really say that I like it more then DCK, because DCK is nice when I want a relaxing dissociative experience which isn't too crazy and doesn't send me into a K-hole. So far it is at least my second favourite dissociative if not second favourite drug in general.

I definitely tend towards addiction with dissociatives, they are my favorite class of drugs. So I know I shouldn't keep a bigger amount of them near me.

Exp Year: 2020-2021	ExpID: 116411
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Jun 8, 2022	Views: 1,508
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