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Stronger Than Expected - My First Ego Death
Amanitas - A. muscaria & Cannabis
Citation:   Dawidoo165. "Stronger Than Expected - My First Ego Death: An Experience with Amanitas - A. muscaria & Cannabis (exp116755)". Erowid.org. Nov 26, 2022. erowid.org/exp/116755

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
7 g oral Amanitas - A. muscaria (tea)
  T+ 0:30 2 hits smoked Cannabis  
  T+ 1:30   oral Caffeine (liquid)
  T+ 5:00   smoked Cannabis  
  T+ 6:00   oral Alcohol  
  T+ 6:00   smoked Cannabis  
BODY WEIGHT: 70 kg
Preparations Collected a lot of mushrooms in the forest. Firstly dried them, washed them carefully, removed bugs. Total mushrooms dried material I ended up with was 170 grams. Then I boiled them for 3 hours in the water with pH 2.5-2.6 range. I ended up with 5 liters of liquid and put most of it to the freezer after cooling down. The next day me and some of my closest friends (who also helped in the preparation process) decided to drink some of it and go for a party with other friends.

I drank around 220ml of liquid which is aprox. 7 grams of dried mushrooms in a liquid form. My friend R drank around 250-260ml approx 8 grams of dried mushroooms in a liquid form. Two more friends also drank some but they didn't do anything significant in this trip so we will just skip them.

30mins-1h weird feeling that a big thing is coming, smoking some weed with friends out of glass pipe (took 2 hits)

1h-1:30h We left the house. Walking through the city we decided to go to shop to buy some energy drinks cause we felt very sleepy. TRIPPING BALLS in the shop looking very drunk... I buy my redbull and leave the store. We walk for another 30 mins. As I drink my redbull I realize that my sense of taste is a bit numbed. I'm feeling kinda anxious that I might meet someone I know, but at the same time I'm not really stressed. As I walk some things I look at dissapear and appear right after. Road signs are changing to other objects that are around, like bushes. I feel like going back and forth in time. Cars driving by are teleporting back and going forward again. It kinda seemed like some glitch in a video game.

2h-4h Finally reaching friend's house where the party is about to begin. Me and R look, and feel very fucked up, so we immediately go and sit on a couch. My head is getting more and more dizzy and spinning (similar effect to alcohol, but not so heavy on head and I actually remember it). More and more people are coming to the party I barely even notice them. They all laugh at me and R but we don't really care. I also don't blame them it had to look really funny.

R went to another room to lay down. Right around this time my biggest peak was starting to occur. I was on the edge of ego death for what seemed like 15 minutes. Then I actually had an ego death for a short period of time. I completely forgot who I was and what I was doing. My mind was totally blank and I could only look at things without thinking.
I completely forgot who I was and what I was doing. My mind was totally blank and I could only look at things without thinking.
I felt like I was retarded. I couldn't understand the simplest tasks. I was forgetting basic things and reacting super late. I took a friend's backpack and thought for sure it was mine. I was casually taking stuff from it with no recognition that it was not in fact my backpack. I only realized it when he told me that it was his backpack. When someone said something to me it'd take me like 10 seconds to respond and my response wouldn't really be logical.

Walls were moving like crazy, weed visuals (patterns on walls that I usually see at high doses of weed) are visible and more vivid. It was very hard to even think a logical thing in my head... Feeling as if I was living before there were consciousness in my mind. Like I was some kind of animal without consciousness rather than human. Walking was very, very hard without stumbling/crushing into something.

Peeing on muscaria is pretty interesting. I felt like I was really drunk and can't do a shit but I peed perfectly fine and was surprised how good I could do this common behaviour. Looking in the mirror my eyes were moving all over my face they were going down and pushing my mouth to the sides then going back to its normal shape.

Over this whole trip I had a lot of auditory hallucinations even more than visual. Hearing things that aren't really there. Feeling very out of place but managable somehow even with the hard dizziness. At this point I was so fucked up that I realized that I just wrote total gibberish to people on Snapchat 10 minutes ago. I didn't have any memory of doing so. I immediately deleted these messages upon realizing. I kept dropping stuff out of my hands. Barely feeling any touch kinda like on alcohol. All snacks I ate had very little taste.

5-6h I'm coming back to senses as the mushrooms wear off. Smoking some weed on a comedown and getting close to the high from before. This time more lightheaded, with weed dominating the effects. Mushrooms still doing smooth things in the background.

6-6:30h effects of mushrooms completely dissapear and I'm left with some alcohol and weed to end of the day.

Overall very fun and hmmm different experience. Very interesting and fascinating. 100% would do again.

Exp Year: 2022ExpID: 116755
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Nov 26, 2022Views: 808
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