Being the Great 'I Am'
5-MeO-DMT
Citation: Fox & Rabbit. "Being the Great 'I Am': An Experience with 5-MeO-DMT (exp18749)". Erowid.org. Nov 9, 2002. erowid.org/exp/18749
DOSE: |
oral | Mushrooms | (ground / crushed) | |
smoked | 5-MeO-DMT | (freebase) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 135 lb |
OH MY GOOOODNESS. I remember saying.. ooohh my ..gg.. I don't remember exhaling. Just bursting out of my body. It was as if every cell in my being opened up and released all the energy within to go for a walk in the cosmos. I found a place where reality meets nonexistence and god holds your hand. Your five senses are gone.. Not even a small amount of self-realization, rather a unified realization of pure love. Of course. I want to describe something I saw. But I couldn't see. Because I didn't have eyes. Because I didn't have a body. I was everything everywhere. I was every bit of energy that has ever existed in any form from the beginning of time to the end. In one place. And I was as small as a quark and as big as all of space. I remember knowing. Knowing something that doesn't mean anything here. And I remember floating somewhere looking in at it all. And I mean everything. Like the universe beneath me but bigger. Stars.. or a TV screen all gone to frying bacon land. This was when I decided to come back. Then the room came back. I couldn't see it yet.. Or I could but I couldn't perceive it as seeing. I felt the most intense sensation. 'The cosmic orgasm' like 10,000 (no kidding) orgasms of the soul, all at once. The vibration. I could recognize it again. I could feel again although not through my skin. I was still floating just around my body. But I felt B holding me and rocking and he was humming to me. Z and B2 had come into the room at some point and glowing .. With knowing. I had entered a threshold of understanding. And then it was all-ok.
No fear in this drug, there's no time to fear. While I was gone supposedly I said the word 'love'. It was about time. My throat felt a bit scratchy and for an hour I ran around outside flapping my arms in absolute happiness and fulfillment. Got a wave of nausea and puked though. Well worth it.
Exp Year: 2002 | ExpID: 18749 |
Gender: Female | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Nov 9, 2002 | Views: 17,289 |
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