DOSE:	3.0 g	oral	Mushrooms
	2.0 g	oral	Mushrooms
	1 cig.	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

155 lb

Last night began as the greatest mushroom trip and ended with absolute HORROR.

I ate 3 grams and took a shower. It started to come on in the middle and when I got dressed I talked to a few people and everything seemed to have a nice gleam to it. I walked around and was getting that nice 'seeing everything for the first time' feeling and was just feeling SO good. I got it in my head to go on a mission of some sort (a vision quest) and I proceeded to bundle up in warm clothes, and as I was putting each layer on and then my boots, I felt like a warrior getting ready for something BIG.

I also decided that I needed two extra grams of shrooms, so I got those and everything was set. I grabbed two bottles of water and headed out into the bush. I followed animal footprints and talked to myself the whole time. I finally got to a log and sat down. I was tripping VERY hard and was just sitting there hearing all these sounds around me and just feeling giddy.

I ate the two grams and decided that my vision quest would not happen tonight because drugs can't be involved - too distracting. As I was walking back to the campus the other two grams began kicking in. I was absolutely OUT THERE. I smoked a large joint with two people in a giant snow fort and I was just talking away not making any sense really. When we left, I was starting to go down on my peak, I walked ahead and went to my room alone - that was the BIG mistake.

I sat down and for the next 3.5 hours I was stuck in a time-loop. I cannot describe the absolute frustration and mental exhaustion I felt - I thought my brain would literally explode or I'd have a stroke. Every little thing I did seemed to take an hour because I'd get so distracted by one little thought and everytime I'd get on a tangent thinking about it, I'd forget where I was in the thought and would have to start over.

I tried reading the things I wrote when I was peaking and pounding away on the keyboard, but I'd get to the end of the line and couldn't find the next - I'd end up reading the same few lines 5 times. My head actually began to hurt and throb, and I knew that I had to get out of my room and talk to people. Instead of a plan, it became another loop which I would think and think about and never go through. I told myself the only way out of it was to constantly do things. So I took my boots off and said 'I'm getting a glass of water then I am hanging out with people' but instead I ended up on my bed thinking the same thoughts over and over.

A movie would help, I thought. I spent what seemed like an infinite amount of time deciding a movie (with a hundred thoughts distracting me a long the way) and when I finally watched one, I would contemplate each sentence, so it was another loop. Finally I tried to sleep, and surprisingly I was able to after a while. The begininng was such a great trip, but the end was absolutely horrible, and although it's just a memory and it's impossible for me to really empathize with what happened last night, I just know that it was NOT fun at all.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 28833
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 30, 2007	Views: 9,234
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