DOSE:	repeated	insufflated	Methamphetamine
	repeated	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)

BODY WEIGHT:

113 lb

Expelled from meth

To begin, I am a 17 year old high school student who over the past summer was introduced to 'tweak' (crushed crystaled form for snorting crystal meth) by X-boyfriend. He was pretty heavily into it and made the descision to get me into it with him.

My first several days doing it felt like the best days in my life--my mind gave me the sense that I was a whole new and wonderful person. I was on a 4-day binge, each time doing more and more. Life felt like it couldn't have gotten any better and since we were both in it together... we didn't need anyone or anything.

On my 4th day strait of being on it, my supply was cut short when my boyfriend was caught and had admitted to all his activity. His heavy use had him put into a six month rehab program, not being able to see or speak to the public.

I began to crash on the fourth day... I was comming down. I was realizing that me sobering out was only depressing me more and more. The longer I held on the fourth and fifth day being sober... the shittier I felt. I didnt even see the point in living; nothing was fun.

I recognized my problem, so I cut tweak completely out of my life. I began smoking weed after a few weeks of being off tweak. The weed seemed to relax me... it was pretty much a natural antidepressent herb that has the power to calm me down without the come down.

Several more weeks later, I began having a strong craving for tweak, even though I really knew that I shouldn't have it. There was a great hook-up that someone referred me to, and I began stealing money from my dad (who stupidly never ended up noticing his 6 $20's missing every week). I decided that tweak was the only think that could keep me happy and perfect (and really skinny too) so I kept buying every week.

After tweaking for about 3 1/2 weeks non-stop (non stop b/c I had the money to support it)-- I got called into the deans office. The dean told me that several of my teachers had noticed my 'signs' and she told me that 'if I fess up, it will all help me in the end.' I denied it, and the next day (I came to school twattered again)--I was called up into the office to speak with a police officer.

I looked like crap. I hadnt slept for 4 days, hadnt eaten in about that time also. There were bags under my eyes and the police officer told me that if I didnt confess, they would give me a drug test and I would be in even more trouble if I was caught.

I confessed and they had me put it in writing. I was sent to a mental hospital (because my dad didn't want to spend the $700/day rehab expence). I was expelled from my school and all California public schools. The mental hospital made me feel like a worthless piece of shit. The people there were crazy!!!! AND I WASNT ONE OF THEM!! I DIDNT BELONG THERE!!!

I swear that experience was the worst I have ever had, and after a week of being there... I changed personalities about a million times.

I swore to myself that I would never do it again but after I had been home for just three days, I started up again. The story continues into a lot of detail here but the point is: I ended up getting caught again. I have been enrolled to go to a full time 24-hour surveilance outpatient program 1000 miles away from here (I am online now in my 4 hours left at home pretty much just to find out all the info I can about meth before I go to the program). They havent told me much details, but tweak has FUCKED MY LIFE OVER. %

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 49401
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 3, 2018	Views: 2,319
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