I'm One of the Lucky Ones
Alprazolam (Xanax)
Citation: tryingmybest. "I'm One of the Lucky Ones: An Experience with Alprazolam (Xanax) (exp56433)". Erowid.org. Jun 21, 2007. erowid.org/exp/56433
DOSE: |
2.5 mg | oral | Pharms - Alprazolam | (daily) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 150 lb |
Shortly thereafter, a friend of mine had been getting prescription bars(2MG Xanax). She started giving me a couple here and a couple there. I can't even begin to tell you how stupid I was. I didn't even have a clue that I was beginning addiction and what kind of evil drug I was messing with. I started taking a fourth of a bar whenever I felt anxiety or stressed(which seemed to be all the time). That progressed to a half of a bar at a time. I'm still not even sure how much I was taking a day. I think anywhere from 2-3mg a day. I couldn't really tell you though because I was a zombie. I started having memory problems which led to bad feeling about myself which led to taking more Xanax.
Anyway, I finally decided that I didn't need this drug anymore. So I quit taking it. No big deal right? Wrong! The first day was no big deal. I didn't even think about it. The second day, I couldn't sleep. The third day, real weird paranoia hit. I decided to talk with my husband and my girlfriend. I told them I thought I was having withdrawal. They both laughed at me and said I hadn't taken it long enough and just blew me off. By the fourth day, I was home by myself with my two children asleep trying to figure out how I was going to take care of them when they awoke. I was totally freaking out! I felt like I was having a nervous break down. I was hearing voices, trembling, had numbness in my fingers and legs, muscle fatigue, buzzing in my head, & the list goes on and on. I called my girlfriend and asked her to come and sit with me. That is how screwed up I was.
She couldn't come right away so I had to resort to calling my mother. Oh, what fun! My mom came right away and is a RN. She knew right away how serious this was. Apparently, I could go into a coma, have a seizure, or die. I had no idea how serious this could be. It was just a pill. I had to be taken to the ER and was given IV Xanax. I am now still trying to taper off of this crap. I feel like a failure as a mother and I'm embarrassed that I didn't realize what I was doing. I'm posting my story so other out there can be aware of what Xanax can do. I'm one of the lucky ones.
Exp Year: 2006 | ExpID: 56433 |
Gender: Female | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Jun 21, 2007 | Views: 72,999 |
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Pharms - Alprazolam (98) : Not Applicable (38), Pregnancy / Baby (33), Depression (15), Addiction & Habituation (10), Difficult Experiences (5) |
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