DOSE:

insufflated

Heroin

(powder / crystals)

Heroin. I love the way it sounds. The way I feel when I hear that name.

Never thought I would actually do it. Much less be called an addict. My older brother was a heroin addict when I was in elementary school and entering into middle school. I knew it was bad. Knew the potential of everything it brought with it. Yet curiosity got the better of me.

I was going out with this guy. None of my friends liked him, so soon enough it was just him and myself. Well...and a few of his friends, of course. But I, myself, was 'alone.' His birthday was approaching and he asked if he could do it. Before us, he had a habit of doing H. I told him not to do it behind my back because I hate being lied to. So, he asked me. Well, I certainly didn't have anything to lose and had always wanted to try it. I Wanted to know what all the fuss was about. Why my brother got so caught up in it. A little bit couldn't hurt. Just once. ...Right! I wish.

I was spoiled the first time I tried it. My boyfriend was bestfriends with our dealer and ..well lets just say I knew him pretty well. I was spoiled because the shit we had gotten was pure heaven. It sold quick and he could raise the price because it was pretty potent. I snorted it. Well, we both did. I'll never forget walking out of that apartment and his friends saying, 'Have fun!'
Well we did it all that night. Can't remember how much we got. But it was heaven! You know that song Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd? The next day I listened to it and understood EVERYTHING it was talking about. I believe that song is the best explanation of what it feels like to be h'ed out. I thought to myself, 'WHAT?! That is so not addicting. Its fun as fuck! But not addicting. I can handle this shit!' Of course, like anyone else who has said that, it comes back to test me. Can I handle it? Am I sure I can do it without getting caught up in it? Positive it won't control my thoughts?

Actually I was spoiled the whole time I was doing it. As all of our tolerance grew, we found better, more potent h. Yummy!
I love the feeling of being h'ed out. I'm sitting there. No pain. No nothing. Fuck everything and everyone. Drift into my dreams. Drift back into my chair. Drift into intense nothingness. Mumble a few random words. Forget what people are saying. Forget what I was saying. Forget I was saying anything. Remember my surroundings, but forget them at the same time. Take another hit. Nothingness intensifies. Relax. Drift back into all my thoughts and dreams. Forget about every little detail, moment, person, and pain. But I guarantee I won't forget about that feeling.

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 61745
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Aug 20, 2020	Views: 1,535
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