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Reverse Time and Without Existence
Amanitas - A. muscaria & Cacti - T. pachanoi
Citation:   chorozon. "Reverse Time and Without Existence: An Experience with Amanitas - A. muscaria & Cacti - T. pachanoi (exp70456)". Erowid.org. Aug 1, 2018. erowid.org/exp/70456

 
DOSE:
12 in oral Cacti - T. pachanoi
  10 g oral Amanitas - A. muscaria
    repeated oral Amanitas - A. muscaria
  3 bowls smoked Cannabis
BODY WEIGHT: 135 lb
[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
First off I have a ridiculously high tolerance so I would not recommend a dose as high as mine to most people. I had previously done LSD, DXM, LSA, and Salvia successfuly. I tried psilocybin twice and mescaline once with no effect.

This night I went to a friend's house to do San Pedro. After hours of consuming as much as I could (a little over a foot) with no effect, I gave up and tried my A+ grade Washington Amanitas Muscaria that I brought along as a back up (knowing that my tolerance is a bitch).

I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich covered with about 10 grams of Amanitas. I ate it, smoking weed whenever I got any kind of stomach pain. After about an hour and half with little noticable affect, I made a second sandwich of a similar dose. As I continued to not feel anything, I just started eating the Amanitas plain (taste wasn't too bad, particularly after trying to eat San Pedro). I smoked perhaps 3 bowls of weed during this time to prevent nausea.

By this time it was late and my friend's parents had gone to bed. I wasn't worried cause they were crazy mountain potheads and knew that we were eating cactus (although we told them the effects were like absinthe since they weren't really down with psychedelics). I was just annoyed that my friends were tripping and I still wasn't anything but a little high from the weed.

Slowly, I started noticing effects. At first, it was just a great mix of weed/acid type visuals with a lot of prime colors, fractals, patterns, grotesque faces, strange textures, etc. The body feeling was interesting. Movement was somewhat dreamy, yet very clear. Moving seemed more effortless than usual and very smooth. Surfaces began to churn, particularly the carpet. I also remember text swaying, reminding me of seaweed beneath water. I also had cool mc esher like stairways composed of bright colors that repeated endless into to infinity. I REALLY enjoyed petting my friends cat.

After a while I began to trip REALLY hard. I'm not sure exactly when but I was overcome by intense nausea and ran outside to puke. Puking was pretty bad since it went up and out both my nose and mouth, so I was blowing vomit out my nose for a long time. This happened another time later in the trip.

I found writing down my thoughts really difficult because my writing showed up on the page much later than when I thought I had written
I found writing down my thoughts really difficult because my writing showed up on the page much later than when I thought I had written
(my friend was nice enough to write down some of the things I told him). Also, my writing swayed and squirmed in a cool manner. At this point I really lost it. I found myself alternately feeling as though I was one with every single part of the entire universe and all the matter in it, then feeling as though I was without any kind of existence whatsoever. I enjoyed this immensely and there was no fear, although I tried to get back to my normal sense of existence via many mind games and thought processes that I can't describe.

Weirdest of all, time started to flow in different directions. I felt an intense sense of deja vu, to the point where I was unable to keep myself from saying phrases in reverse order and doing things backwards. I was unable to keep myself from doing things in reverse order. I felt that time was flowing backwards, but only for me. My friends continued to exist in normal time. I spent a lot of time trying to complete the 'time loop' so I could experience the present normally. Sometimes this involved just waiting, other times this involved saying things or trying to throw up. At one point I went to the bathroom and began speaking in a loud voice to myself until my friend came to get me and tell me to be quiet. Eventually, I managed to make my way to bed and crash. I wished I could have stayed up later.

All of this was difficult but amazing. It had a spiritual component to me in that I felt I had glimpsed the cosmic chaos and divine meaningless that lies beyond the confines of time and existence.

The next day kinda sucked cause my parents grounded me for not returning their calls or telling them where I was. Driving home was a little difficult but I made it and I don't think my driving was too bad (my friend said I was doing all right). I slept a lot in the afternoon. The next few days I experienced some of my traditional flashbacks: flattening of surfaces, waving of flat objects, burn out flashes, and a strange sensation like the bounce at the end of an elevator ride.

All in all, it was great and I plan to do it again but earlier in the day so I won't fall asleep. I definitely recommend a sitter for high doses because I was definitely very delirious toward the climax of the trip.

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 70456
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Aug 1, 2018Views: 1,127
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