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I Can't Seem to Ever Quit Using
Cocaine
by Dean
Citation:   Dean. "I Can't Seem to Ever Quit Using: An Experience with Cocaine (exp73801)". Erowid.org. Jun 23, 2020. erowid.org/exp/73801

 
DOSE:
  repeated insufflated Cocaine
BODY WEIGHT: 160 lb
As I cut out a good sized line I feel inclined to say that I hate doing this drug... well maybe I am being a little dramatic, but I can't seem to ever quit using cocaine. I like to be traditional about my use of cocaine, I snort it, this is not to say that I haven't freebased or smoked crack which I have. I am a college student, favorite band is radiohead, and I live in the midwest. I started using narcotics when I was eighteen and realized that I love them so much more than more traditional methods of intoxication. But I am a coke-head at heart. I have never been the kind of person that can take a few lines at a party and be done with it. I go all out when I fuck with the lady.

Tonight I went out with my girlfriend to sushi and a movie, she had to be up early so I took her home. Sitting home alone, with no alcohol (my number 2), my mind began to wonder. It has always been easy for me to obtain substances, I dont know why but I just tend to gravitate to that kind of element. Which is funny because I am a very non-threatening guy. You wouldn't suspect my drug habits from just looking at me, unless you saw me after a three day blowout. So I make the reasonable drive and get my T. Take a line in the car and drive home through the rain feeling wonderful. As I sit at home I become bored by TV so I take more lines. Too many lines too fast, but it has always been my way. This is why I always have such a terrible fiend, because I have no self-control.

In writing this experiance I have taken at least four good sized lines. My night will end like all the others, sleepless in bed wondering why the fuck did I do this to myself.

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 73801
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Jun 23, 2020Views: 891
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