A Spike of Emotions
St John's Wort
Citation: kollana. "A Spike of Emotions: An Experience with St John's Wort (exp79047)". Erowid.org. Jul 11, 2019. erowid.org/exp/79047
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3 capsls | oral | St. John's Wort |
BODY WEIGHT: | 140 lb |
After my first year of college I became even more depressed. Depressed to the point where I felt like it was pointless to be living anymore. I was just surfing the web one day when I came across this OTC 'antidepressant' as many call it. I decided to try it for myself in hopes of at least lifting my mood.
I decided to try it for myself in hopes of at least lifting my mood.
For example, last night when I was straightening my hair, my hair wasn't doing what I wanted it to do. I got so frustrated I threw the straightener on the floor. That is the first time I have ever thrown anything out of anger. When I realized that I had just thrown the straightener I felt extremely sad. I thought to myself, 'why would I do that. That was pointless; I'm so stupid.' Anyways I finished fixing my hair and was never really satisfied with it which rarely happens because I fix it until it's how I like it. I went over to a friends house and had to leave within 30 minutes of getting there because my friend had mentioned me doing poorly in college. It made me so sad I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die. I had realized I didn't do my best the first year but I never had been this depressed when thinking about it.
Regardless to say my emotions just kept spiking over meaningless things over the past four days which was worse than being depressed. So I just threw out the pills.
Exp Year: 2009 | ExpID: 79047 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Jul 11, 2019 | Views: 2,162 |
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St. John's Wort (142) : Depression (15), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Difficult Experiences (5), Not Applicable (38) |
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