DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 bump	insufflated	MDPV	(powder / crystals)
T+ 3:00	1 bump	insufflated	MDPV	(powder / crystals)
T+ 5:00	1 bump	insufflated	MDPV	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

157 lb

Background:
I have quite a bit of experience with rc’s and psychedelics, and have over the years become quite cautious about not over doing it. This particular compound very much triggered special caution in me because of its lasting duration and powerful effect per amount.

My mindset was of a great disposition, ready to be social and have extra stimulation and social lube. No real preparation. I take one tiny bump at 2:30 am.

At +0:05 I can feel stimulation picking up. It’s tempting to do more, but I’ve done it before and I know that it can take time to come on and I don’t want to over do it.

Between +0:05 and +0:30 I gain energy, focus, because talkative and slightly jittery. It is an effect I enjoy and I was really hoping that this could be a suitable lifestyle drug for me to get extra motivation and get things done on. I am able to get things done and am inclined to talk honestly and empathetically about stuff that is important and otherwise not easy for me to talk about.

At +3:00 I am feeling good, with a slightly increased heartrate. I do another 5 mg bump. This goes well and I continue in depth conversation with friends. The effect is mostly stimulation with some slight extra empathy, honesty, and general pleasurability.

At +5:00 I do another 5mg bump. The effect builds subtly. I have the same effects, and I let them wear down because I know it will take a long time for me to get to sleep.

As it wears off, at +7:00 the social lube quickly turns to drag. How was I enthusiastically having an in depth conversation with everyone when now there’s nothing to talk about? I go to bed with some paranoia... much of it I still think justified over the friends I had over, their lifestyle, their propensity for legal trouble, poor decisions, and extremely risky behavior. Then I start feeling like the inside of my heart is scratched or ticklish. I hope to everything holy and sacred that I’m not causing any sort of damage to my heart. I wonder why I would possibly risk such a delicate aspect of my health for such a small trade off. I think of Dick Cheney with his new metal tube from his chest- having his heart powered by a constant whirring motor... having no pulse... having to carry batteries with himself everywhere and I wonder if maybe he did some unsafe drugs back in the day. I also wonder if the dopamine re-uptake inhibitor effect, over even a week or so of use, could cause die-off or dysfunction in the dopamine receptors- causing a dopamine deficiency- which can be as extreme as michael J fox’s Parkinson's disease.

I try to sleep for 3 hours, wondering why I would possibly risk so much for such a small payoff, assessing all of the wild dangerous variables in my life, and resolve to change my ways. I decide that, with the heart effects, it may prove beneficial for someone out there if I share my experience. I hoped to find something I could use semi regularly and responsibly to get stuff done, and I understand there is a tendency amongst myself and other users to minimize or deny the dangerous side effects and risks associated with a compound they enjoy. But I can’t lie to myself down the road of heart damage, and being honest with myself and my assessment of this heart side effect. I feel obligated to voice my analysis: Not safe and not for people who value their health at all. Dangerous. (period)

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 86519
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Feb 24, 2017	Views: 1,729
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