DOSE: T+ 0:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin
T+ 1:00	600 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

Dosage: T+0 – 600mg;
T+1hr - 600mg

I am an opiate person. Have been off opiates for 8 years but had open heart surgery and got on oxy/hydros for 7 weeks. After withdrawals found myself in opiate post acute withdrawal depression + post open heart depression + a natural inclination to get depressed.

Took 1200 mg of this drug after reading up on it and expecting a weak benzoish + antidepressant effect. Instead I find it trippy & dissociative. Like LSD. Heart pounds and feels like it’s in my throat. I’m oversensitive to light and noise and people. Feel lightheaded but nervous, like being on weed which I’ve outgrown many moons ago. The nervousness makes me behave mellow but I am anything but mellow inside. Everything I encounter is way too intense, I lose my skin, the news on the tv pierces through me. Speedy yet lethargic, hyper yet sad, emotions are heightened yet I’m numb and cotton woolly. This drug puts me all over the map and I can’t relax into it.

With a weird taste in the mouth I’m thirsty yet don’t feel like drinking anything. Stomach feels empty but food feels alien, and I have to stuff some down. I am all vulnerable like a method actor fully exposed. Got some relief dancing to my ipod in the bathroom. Listening to music is really nice but I preferred obscure lyrics, like German pop rock because it feels better not to understand words 100%, ethereal and somewhat sad intimations being preferable to the obvious and explicit.

This drug is stimulative, not sedating in the least. After 5 hours I took 5 mg of valium (Im not benzo tolerant) to take the edge off, to come down. Better be around someone I am really comfortable with and don’t have to put up any kind of mask and can be totally disinhibited around, which I wasn’t. I was with family.

I would not consider this as an aid in benzo or opiate withdrawal because of the mindfuck, speediness and dry mouth syndrome. It does cure nerve pain completely. I still have searing pain around my surgery incision which nothing touches except this drug. As a karmic counterbalance it gives me a slight headache. The end effects, when the drug is wearing off, are best. Got into bed and had waking dreams of opiate quality – finally...

I like to be insulated, grounded, feeling no pain and warm in my spine, and this drug does not do any of those things.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 87079
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 53
Published: Jan 11, 2017	Views: 27,729
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