DOSE:

2 mg

oral

Pharms - Clonazepam

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

135 lb

Ok so let me start by saying that I have tried quite the plethora of different obscure drugs, most of time just once, but generally speaking I have a good amount to compare this experience to. Also, I have been prescribed anxiety meds for roughly a year now (they have increased my quality of life exponentially and honestly I could have used a prescription a long time ago...) starting with klonopin and now valium. (I also have used xanax samples as well).

Inevitably a friend and I, of whom is also prescribed similar meds for similar reasons, have tested these drugs for recreational potential. We have discovered two very important things about these meds with regards to their singular, non-combination, recreational potential:

1) The “high” one receives from any benzo is markedly increased when the med used is necessary. During acute anxiety, for whatever reason, I can feel the drug FAR more intensely. Note: this is true of all benzos…

2) With klonopin, and so far ONLY with klonopin, it works with ridiculously more intense pleasure when sleep deprived. This is to the point where it’s so pleasurable we use the thought of klonopin after an all-nighter of homework as motivation to keep working.

Now the second aforesaid realization has been repeatedly confirmed by several people to the point where it has basically become indisputable to me. A recollection of the first time this notion was realized is as follows:

So I attend one of the more prestigious universities in the country, which is great and all except that they routinely KICK MY ASS in ways I never before thought possible. So there was one night where I got like 4 hours of sleep from homework, psh’t, nothing new there. But the following day I had to study with a friend ALL-DAY and ALL-NIGHT for a statistics exam because we were so far behind from all our other work. (For the record we had no stims at this point (other than caffeine) if I remember correctly).

So I ended up having one of the more miserable nights like ever, which included NO sleep and peaked when I took the exam (I got a 42 if anyone cares), and then I went to go sleep in my room. Except I remembered I HAD to go to an architecture guest lecture that night and write a paper about it. I had to leave immediately to make it in time and so I did. The talk was amazing actually despite horribly struggling to remain awake, yet I felt like shit afterward because A) Obviously I hadn’t slept in god knows how long and B) the talk made me realize that I needed to change my major and blah blah etc I understood that I am ridiculously inferior to the other students in my school’s math program and that basically I was fucked for a career and by extension I was inevitably going to live in a cardboard box in an underpass as an art major (my other major at the time). My miserable performance on that stats exam didn’t really help either. I also had the realization that my social ineptitude in combo with my ridiculously specific and often subconsciously self-sabotaging standards basically ensured that I was to remain single and lonely my whole life. Of course the solution is always to drown your sorrows in drugs ;)

Soooo… long story short I felt very panicky on this walk back to go meet my friend for food so, surprise, I took 2 mg of klonopin (my prescribed dose). By the time I arrived at the dining facility my dearest klonnie had SMACKED ME on my ass, so to speak. This was in like 10 minutes TOPS. At this point in my life normally klonopin took like an hour to work for me. Furthermore, take note that I genetically have a HUGE benzo tolerance and 2 mg is the smallest amount I can take to feel anything normally. I literally acted and felt like a dinosaur from Jurassic Park that had just been shot in the ass with a tranquilizer. The drug acted like a massive warm blanket “softening” and hyper-relaxing every part of my body from my fingertips to my toes. It was the most relaxed and euphoric I have ever felt. Even compared to opiates. My thought process allowed me to drift slowly away from my normal pessimistically vanity-inducing and envy-inducing self-loathing self. (Although not fully, but such is the case with all benzos). All physical symptoms of anxiety were GONE though. I felt fantastic actually; everything felt different in a very positive way. Things as superficial as grabbing a turkey burger and biting it were just simply “softer.” It’s hard to describe without using that word actually. You just hold things more loosely and do things more slowly, all uncontrollably, yet in a very positive way. There was a semi-relatable difficulty speaking to that of a small dose of alcohol. There was also markedly painkilling affects as well. I forced myself to remain awake a bit longer to enjoy it longer and it was so worth it. The only thing to be aware of is that time tends to crunch a bit totally benzoed. I.e. 60 minutes feels more like 30. There were also small insignificant parts of the night that I don’t recall at all. That’s only like 1% of the night though, if at all, but it is important o take note of that. Conclusively, when I finally gave in, I had one of the best nights sleep of my life.

We put two and two together and realized the necessity of the drug in combo with the sleep deprivation made it beyond fantastic. We have tested it many a time and its now to the point where when we’ve been up late and we’re super tired, we’ll get excited suddenly and shout “Hey guess what!? We’re sleep deprived!!” to which is casually responded with “You’re right! Break out the klonnie!”

Sadly klonopin has actually stopped being functional for me unless I take like 4 mg so my psychiatrist has switched me valium (which is still excellent) but there will always be a special place for klonnie in my heart haha.

PS Oh and benzos are pretty much the best drugs ever. There’s no negative side affects at all for me (unless I count sleepiness as negative), they’re miraculously functional and brilliantly recreational when used appropriately.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 87286
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Apr 6, 2018	Views: 23,721
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