Loss of Self
Ketamine
Citation: urbanshaman. "Loss of Self: An Experience with Ketamine (exp87516)". Erowid.org. Aug 4, 2017. erowid.org/exp/87516
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repeated | insufflated | Ketamine | (powder / crystals) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 6 st |
Over the course of a year I dread to think how much I took but after six months a gram line wouldn’t touch me and I found myself taking about ten grams a day. My weight dropped from 9 ˝ stone to 6. My personal hygiene was not an issue for me anymore and I was being taken advantage of by the squatters that I had moved in with. I sold the majority of my possessions to feed my habit and lost all of my family and friends.
The first time I had ketamine kramps I thought I was dying.
The first time I had ketamine kramps I thought I was dying.
It has been a year since this and mentally I’m almost there. I can feel happy and my ability to socialise and work is coming back. I have regular flashbacks, anxiety, panic attacks and low self esteem. Physically my weight's increased by half a stone however, I have constant indigestion and get bad cystitis, some of my teeth have fallen out due to my poor personal hygiene and my hair is going grey from stress.
I always considered myself a clever girl and thought I was gonna go far. I was told ketamine wasn’t addictive, had little side effects and was practically harmless but it destroyed my life for a year and a half. I’ve learnt from my mistake and don’t have regrets. I hope that someone will read this and see how dangerous this drug can be, because they might not be as lucky as I was.
Exp Year: 2007 | ExpID: 87516 |
Gender: Female | |
Age at time of experience: 18 | |
Published: Aug 4, 2017 | Views: 2,458 |
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Ketamine (31) : Not Applicable (38), Post Trip Problems (8), Addiction & Habituation (10), Health Problems (27), Retrospective / Summary (11) |
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