DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 mg	oral	Methoxetamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 1:00	10 mg	oral	Methoxetamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 2:00	50 mg	oral	Methoxetamine	(powder / crystals)
T+ 8:00	1 mg	oral	Pharms - Phenazepam

BODY WEIGHT:

72 kg

I bought 500mg from a reliable (just from my intuition and past experiences) chemical vendor. In general don't like research chemicals. I think it is a Russian roulette and I prefer to use substances with a long history of use and low risk. But this time I wanted to try just once a dissociative similar to Ketamine. I thought one or two times can't be so bad...

T+0:00 - Allergy test 1 mg oral Methoxetamine
T+1:00 - Test 10 mg oral Methoxetamine
T+2:00 - 50 mg oral Methoxetamine
T+3:00 - Starting to feel light and strange.
T+3:30 - I feel strange, a little bit stoned but no euphoria at all. I was expecting something better. I felt retarded. I tried to use computer but it was not easy to push the right buttons.

T+4:xx - The time seems to warp. Only watching the clock I can understand how much time passed. I feel bad, like a toxic feeling. Paranoid thinking starts to permeate my brain I think 'why do I put my mind and body in the hands of Chinese people who are poisoning me?' I got angry with my myself, I thought I was going to be hospitalized and my wife would find out about this drug and leave me, police would raid my home or in the worst case I would have permanent damage... Reality was now warped like in a horror movie and I felt really out of myself (dissociated) not like a OBE but simply I felt near my body but detached. I tried to throw up... too difficult. I decided I simply had to resist till the day after. I forced myself to drink and tried to sleep...

T+8:xx - I got up in panic. My legs were shaking, heart beating fast and strongly. Less distortion but a scary semi-paralysis of the left side of the body. I thought I am lost. I must go to ER and there will be bad consequences... I tried to make my brain work. I concentrated to think rationally. I remembered I had a heartbeat and blood pressure monitor. I used it, 60-110, 120 beats. I thought it is not terrible even if I felt very bad. I tried to find some benzos I never used but I know that they
can be helpful in such cases but first I wanted to check for dangerous interactions... Using the pc was not easy... no, no danger. I popped 1 mg Phenazepam and tried to relax. I started to pray God to save me. Luckily the benzos worked and I felt calmer.

T+9:xx able to sleep more.
T+13:00 I wake up and I feel much better I am so happy that there are apparently no brain damages... I go to throw away the scary chem.

I repeated to myself NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN. Mushrooms are 1000 times better and safer...

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 89607
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 39
Published: Feb 11, 2011	Views: 4,519
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