DOSE:	7 seeds	oral	H.B. Woodrose	(ground / crushed)
		oral	Garlic	(fresh)

BODY WEIGHT:

185 lb

This was my first experience with anything like this. I read a lot about it before I did it, but it didn't end up being what I expected.

I ordered up 200 'Super Strong' HBWR seeds, and got them a few weeks later. (They seem to have gotten lost in the mail for a while.) I counted out 7 and ground them up in my coffee grinder. I opened the grinder to find the seeds had stuck to the sides, and there wasn't really anything to dump out, so I used distilled water to rinse the grinder out and poured that into a cup. I put a clove of garlic in the cup, and used my handheld blender to make a homogeneous mixture of distilled water, garlic and HBWR seeds. (I read the garlic is supposed to help with the cyanogens in the HBWR.) I plugged my nose and downed the mixture.
A half hour later my left eye started twitching, and my veins looked as if someone wrote on them with a blue marker. Other than that, I just felt a tad different than normal.

A hour and forty-five minutes later I was in an incredibly uncomfortable state of mind. The best way I can describe it is like having to hold up as much weight as you can possibly manage over your head indefinitely; in this case my arms being my sanity, and the weight a manifestation of those potent little devilish seeds. Gravity itself even seemed twice as strong. I was being forcefully pushed out of my mind, and it was a painful experience. My tactile sense was numbed, but this numbness was not an expression of any sort of comfort - it was the fact I was already in too much internal pain to experience anything else. My vision was blurry, and I was drooling.

Two and a half hours later I started feeling some relief from the pressure and could explore my insanity. My vision was messed up, but there were no visuals. I had the sensation of bubbles floating in my mind, and everywhere they went, they scrambled it around. Sometimes it felt good, sometimes it felt bad, and sometimes it was just plain confusing. The painful pressure that defined the first part of my experience would flow in and out like waves at the beach.

Three hours later I started to notice that my jaw and teeth were in pain because I was clenching them together with great pressure. I was surprised because I hadn't read about it. I had to consciously keep my mouth partly open, or my jaw muscles would spasm shut. Most of the higher functioning parts of my mind had shut down, and I was noticing a distinct lack of any level of sentience I was used to; I felt like a monkey. I had a strong oral fixation, which I've never had before, and I found immense pleasure in petting my cat. I noticed certain parts of my humanity I put to rest over the years because they were uncomfortable were awakening , whether I wanted them to or not. I'm not sure how my cat could tell, but he was very nervous and looking around for something stalking him. At some level he was clearly in tune with my internal anxiety - perhaps my dilated eyes meant something to a cat.

The rest of my experience pretty much stayed the same except anxiety and fatigue were slowly building, and I tried to escape it by sleeping but I couldn't. It was over ten hours in before I could get to sleep. (My dreams were more vivid.) I woke up and decided to write this because I didn't feel everything I read prepared me for what I experienced. My mind is still not all there so forgive me if this is poorly written, but I consider myself quite mentally tough, and I could only barely handle this.
Be very careful with these seeds. They're no joke, and they last a long time.

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 89813
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: May 29, 2020	Views: 664
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