Forgetting Myself, Over and Over
Salvia divinorum (40x extract)
Citation: Aerosnale. "Forgetting Myself, Over and Over: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (40x extract) (exp89980)". Erowid.org. Apr 2, 2012. erowid.org/exp/89980
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smoked | Salvia divinorum | (extract) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 140 lb |
Later in the night we decided to see if the salvia would have any effect again, with another friend of mine. We continued to my car where we could play some music and be warm to sit and smoke. I packed the pipe with the same ratio I had used previously and let my friend from earlier go first. He clicked the torch lighter on, cleared the pipe, and began an endless laughing fit for 5 minutes or so, during which I grabbed my pipe, ignited the torch and cleared the pipe myself.
..... no thoughts at all, probably for 60 seconds or so
followed by my vision starting to return, but I could only see dark colors and geometric borders. It was quite wierd, but I couldnt comprehend what was going on nor could comprehend anything at all, it just felt like a lack of everything. When I could finally see enough to produce a real thought, that thought was 'WHAT.' like I had just been placed in my body in that situation for the first time ever and I had to figure out what was going on... Like, what the f is going on. my memory seemed to be re-setting itself every second, so I was saying WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. without even realizing I stated the previous 'what'. Eventually I could gather my life again without forgetting it, finally realizng where I was, who i was with, and what i was doing FOR GOOD. I feel like i was able to come to that conclusion multiple times but my memory would re set and I'd have to figure it out from the start... how frustrating.
Anyways, I find it incredible that despite how many times I forgot my life, that I remember the entire experience and have a good idea how long it took place for. Also, during the period of forgetting my life every single second, I did wierd things like turned my cabin light on, took my key out of the ignition, put it back in, started my car, opened and closed my door, probably just because they were habitual things I did that kept me in reality or because I just had no idea what in the world I was doing. But when i was back to normal, I wanted to locate all my things and start putting stuff away, but I had to spit. As soon as i opened my door to spit, I had the most real deja vu experience of my life.
I continued to turn the cabin light on to gather my stuff... that too was part of my deja vu and so was everything i did. I realized the root of my deja vu was my salvia experience I had just gone through minutes earlier. All of the wierd things I did during my WHAT.WHAT freak out were the things I was immediately having deja vu over. It creeped me out, especially after reading a ton of stuff about time travel and the 10 demensions we can comprehend, it was kind of blowing my mind. I felt the need to smoke some weed during this comedown because sometimes it brings me to a familiar place faster than it takes to become strictly sober, and then I was completley regular 20 minutes later and drove home. Total out of body experience
Overall, the experience wasnt exactly enjoyable because I didn't have a mind to enjoy it with while I was high on it. So it wasnt bad either. Since it is an amazing story, I am glad i have the experience under my belt. To be or not to be, that is the question i suppose
Exp Year: 2010 | ExpID: 89980 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 18 | |
Published: Apr 2, 2012 | Views: 6,671 |
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