I Was Not in a Body
Amanitas - A. pantherina, Passion Flower & Cannabis
Citation: NorCon. "I Was Not in a Body: An Experience with Amanitas - A. pantherina, Passion Flower & Cannabis (exp91078)". Erowid.org. Jun 25, 2018. erowid.org/exp/91078
DOSE: |
2 bowls | smoked | Cannabis | |
2 cups | oral | Passion Flower | (tea) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 170 lb |
Intro:
My cousin and I had purchased the grade A Washington Amanita Muscaria off a recommended website and split the bounty in half, so we may both ideally be on the same level. But to no avail, we had a slight change in consciousness and perhaps a loss of equilibrium. So at this loss, we decided to move up a notch, and try the Amanita Pantherina, reading that they were a stronger trip, that being what we were after.
When they came, we were more than a little excited. I had also been drinking Passion Flower tea, not regularly, but often. The backyard is almost overwhelmed with the vines, so about once a week I cook up a batch of leaves so I may have some tea for the week. It is a great tasting, and very curious tea. It helps a lot with my constant anxiety where cannabis will not, also it helps with my back pain and even helps me sleep through the night.
The trip:
Well I was preparing for a road trip from San Diego after playing a show with my band at the local venue there on the way back home to Los Angeles. It was a bright idea of mine to eat these mushrooms and trip on the way as my friend/guitarist drove me back. What a trip I was in for.
First it began as an extreme body 'high'. A buzzing feeling in my entire body, and a sense of power, that I could set my mind to something and do it, not extraordinary things, but physically demanding things. I smoked two bowls from an apple, and finished my second cup of Passion Flower tea, and it was time to go.
It started out as very sleepy, probably from the tea and the weed, but I wasn't falling asleep per say, I was more in a dreamy state.
I wasn't falling asleep per say, I was more in a dreamy state.
Then I became lost. I could no longer control my thought. I was not in a body, I did not have a body. I was only a suspension of thought, but this thought was only pictures, constantly flashing in wherever or whatever I was. It was no longer a mind even, I just was. It was not alarming until I realized I could not control it. Then I tried to stop it and I couldn't. Flashing from thought to thought, I was not only seeing things I knew, but things the world, universe, galaxies knew. I became aware that I was stuck in forever. The idea of forever became the only solidified thing I could comprehend. This idea that no human could comprehend without becoming lost. I started thinking, 'what if someone told you to think of forever?' and that notion would kick off this cycle of thought that would seem endless until something else kicked off another. But all of it ended up being the same thought, FOREVER. Because there was no body, no bodily features, not even a mind. I was simply (or not simply) a consciousness of all. Forever became reality, I was never going to stop seeing what it was because that is what I was, a thought, an idea. This went on for I'm guess about 3 hours, the entire drive from San Diego to L.A.
Once we arrived home, I finally returned to my body.
Once we arrived home, I finally returned to my body.
Conclusion:
Though it was miserable at the time, reflecting on this trip (or mind fuck) I am extremely satisfied with the opening of new consciousness. I remember thinking at the time, I wish this on no one. I would never ask anyone to think of forever. But now looking back, it was quite a thing to be able to comprehend. I never realized that I knew nothing of what forever could be, and I know I have not done a great job of painting the picture of what it was, but maybe that is the trick of it.
These are nothing like Psilocybin mushrooms. Completely different active chemicals, and completely different trips, but thought-provoking, or inducing nonetheless. But have a babysitter.
Thanks for reading, and enjoy
Exp Year: 2011 | ExpID: 91078 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 20 | |
Published: Jun 25, 2018 | Views: 3,526 |
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