DOSE:		oral	Cannabis	(edible / food)
		oral	Cacahuaxochitl	(edible / food)

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

Lifestyle Design Experiment: Raw Food Diet - Day 27: The Cannabis Experiment

Yesterday was day 27 and the knot in my stomach had only gotten worse. What is this garbage! I’ve been exercising, eating enough, sleeping enough, what is going on? I decided it was time to clean up my life and bring in some natural raw medicine to help me to process the stuck emotions. For my birthday, a friend gave me a few raw cacao cannabis treats made with coconut cannabis butter. I had left them in my fridge since the beginning of the month, eyeing them from time to time. I didn’t really want it to mess with the results of my lifestyle design experiment, but we’re nearing the end and I think you might be curious to discover what happens when someone on the 80\10\10 raw food diet tries edible cannabis.

I made sure to finish my work for the day before taking the sacrament. I published a couple articles, cleaned up my space, processed and ate 2.5 pounds of jackfruit, and popped in ‘What the Bleep Do We Know-Down The Rabbit Hole’. I had four cacao-cannabis treats, four doses, and decided to take just one. I had no idea how powerful they could be, and I really didn’t expect I would have any sort of built-up tolerance to the medicine.

I spent some time experimenting with cannabis in college, even attributing my personal awakening to its use. The way it helps shift me out of normal fearful thought processes into a totally new thought-reality helped me to recognize that so much more existed to life than what I had been experiencing. The day I graduated was the last day I had cannabis for a long time. The excitement from it was totally gone, I would only feel stoned for long periods of time and want to sink into the couch or sleep when I partook. I didn’t find anything pleasurable or useful about it anymore and almost entirely discontinued use. I find that if I don’t use cannabis for a long time and then partake consciously, I can often times can evoke a spiritual experience. It's about having respect for the herb.

While the movie was really blowing my mind, I noticed I didn’t feel much effect after about an hour and a half. I had already put myself in the mindset of healing and had noticed a little energy clearing out, but nothing major was happening to me. I decided I would eat the other three snacks and quadruple my original dose. I wasn’t impressed with the flavor or consistency of this chocolaty treat, and it felt dry and lifeless going down my throat. It was raw, but it didn’t feel like it had life force vibrating in it, at least not like my fruit does. The cannabis tasted like a fir forest and was deep and herbal. I felt good about the trip to come.

Finally, my perceptions started to shift and reality took on a whole new flavor. I suddenly became totally aware of all the tension I was holding in my body. “This is amazing!” I thought to myself. It was great to identify all the fear I held, but it wasn’t fun recognizing I was holding so much tension in my hips, my tailbone, my jaw and mouth, my stomach, my neck, my chest and back. I looked in the mirror and could see everything, could see how I have been holding myself back so much with these fearful thoughts, and I could see where and how much was in each area of my body.

I began to breathe deeply, down into my belly, beginning my personal blend of tai chi and yoga to get the energy moving and clear out the blocks. We hold emotional tensions in our bodies, that’s why it’s so important to exercise, stretch, make love, get massages, swim in the water, roll in the grass and move our bodies around in playful ways. Our pent up emotions will literally cripple us if we don’t take care of them. I have been working on healing my body and releasing my stuck emotions for years.

After a good deal of work, things started to loosen up. More deep breathing and holding warrior yoga poses, more areas released. What a refreshing feeling to let go of the tension I had been holding in my hips, to allow the full use of my muscles in that area, to allow energy to flow completely, uninhibited through all channels in my pelvic area. My belly released and allowed my posture to straighten, re-engaging different muscles in my lower back. My pelvic girdle popped back into place over my legs and everything from the way my feet felt against the floor, to the use of muscles in my lower legs, my thighs and butt all shifted into place. My chest relaxed open to the front of my heart and my shoulder blades relaxed onto my back. My arms opened outward, finally unencumbered by so much tension and fear. Imagine how good it could fear to clear out emotional blockages. Your body is meant to function and feel perfect.

I felt much more alive, but was fighting a little with starting to feel stoned. The cacao was a great stimulant paired with the cannabis, it sped things along and helped my mind to be sharp. Cannabis is actually a stimulant too, and in my experience, I have found it to be a powerful tool to get my energy body moving freely at a faster rate for a short period of time. The downside is feeling stoned and lazy for sometimes dozens of hours afterward. But usually the brief high is enough to get things moving along enough for me to regain my perspective.

Looking closely at my body alignment in the mirror really showed me the next level of my physical fitness and where to find it. I won’t find it in the gym, I’ll find it only in my heart. As soon as I begin to love myself completely and wholly, my heart will have enough power to energize my whole body to its true potential.

My body is much nicer than I have been experiencing and it’s ready to be at the next level of fitness as soon as I can let go of the fear. My chest was wider, my arms bigger, my stomach stronger and longer, my legs of a fine musculature and my face took on a totally new expression. It was as if a man with much more mature masculinity was looking back at me in the mirror. So much more peace and certainty in his heart, so much more confidence and strength held in his body. Yes, let’s keep sending thoughts in this direction!

The wave was just beginning and I found myself guzzling 2 liters of water and sitting down to my notebook, writing some really deep emotional things down without thinking, just allowing my subconscious to flow through my arm into my pen and onto the paper. Looking back I’m really curious about these thoughts trapped in my psyche, but I this is the process to help release them. After a couple pages, I turned on my word processor and really went to work on my life. I recognized how lazy I’ve been and how easy my life has gotten. I realized I wasn’t satisfied with the results I was getting and really needed to get serious about the level of effort I was putting into my life.

“It is time for a major overhaul of the way I’m doing things here. I have gathered enough information to have a clear view. A new cycle is beginning now and my first lifestyle design experiment is nearly complete. It is time to really make sure I enjoy every moment of my life. Discipline, it’s time to bring your skills to a whole new level. Consider a fully planned schedule, start by brainstorming a list of activities you love to do and want to focus on, want to work on.” I wrote getting started.

I spent the next several hours going back and forth between lying in my bed thinking intensely, realizing I have the most comfortable bed ever and if I just totally relax into it, it becomes amazingly soft and supportive. Nice little bonus treasure, thanks cannabis experience! I would frequently hop up excitedly to write things down into the keyboard, sometimes taking breaks in between to breathe deeply and align my body posture when my energy got kinked.

“It’s no longer hippie play mode, gentlemen. It is time to really kick it into hyper drive, bring forward all the skills I have in my repertoire. All of my skills will be put to the test, it’s time to really get my challenge on and make some serious leaps forward in my intentions.”

What happened next would totally shift the way I have been living my life and free my energy to be redirected to the things which make me feel passionate about my life. I realized that my goals are totally endless, and by setting static goals, I am constantly keeping myself trapped in a treadmill of achieving things which don’t feel meaningful. Deep down I’m not truly following goals… I am actually questing. I have quests! This excellent realization sent my mind reeling in a whole new direction for my life and how I’m living it. It provided the knowledge necessary to allow me to continue forward with passion.

After setting up a whole list of goals for the next day and recognizing it was 3am, 5 hours after I normally go to sleep, I decided it would be prime time to put myself between my cozy blankets and the new treasure called my bed. I drifted off to sleep, but my cannabis experience wasn’t over.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 95935
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 24
Published: Dec 1, 2022	Views: 408
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