DOSE:

1600 mg

oral

Pharms - Gabapentin

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

195 lb

This was my second experience with neurontin. There was about 3 months in between my two experiences. I waited in order to avoid the instant tolerance. My night began at about 9:45pm. I took down 4-400mg neurontin pills orally.

Disclaimer: I've suffered my entire life with social anxiety. What you are about to read is NOT the normal me. This drug had a very strong effect on my social skills and pretty much melted all anxiety away.

10pm-Not feeling much yet..maybe a placebo calming effect, but nothing too notable. I left to pick up a friend to head to the city.

10:45- I'm starting to feel a little drunk and a little sociable. My friend was completely trashed, but I found talking to him to be very, very enjoyable.

11- We arrive at our destination. My friend is free of inhibitions, and so was I. I felt slightly wired, very euphoric, and extremely talkative. In the city, we had already made 4 new friends in about 15 minutes. We were the life of the party.

12:30- after being denied entrance to the nightclub due to my friend's blatant intoxication, we decided to explore the city. At this point, I was on top of the world. Everyone was my best friend. We somehow found our way to a little plaza type of thing filled with a massive amount of fellow hippies, as well as many homeless people. It clicked immediately. This was the place to be. The vibes I picked up from this park were almost overwhelming. I felt an extreme sense of 'home' speaking to all of these people and exchanging life stories. I sat on the cement floor and could not sit still. Moving my legs, adjusting my position, moving my hands, etc. I was very antsy, but not necessarily wired. I felt pretty slow and sedated, but a functionable sedation.

1:30- my friend and I were still in the plaza. By this point, I was friends with everyone there. I exchanged numbers with quite a few people and made some really good nomad hippie friends. We decided to leave to walk towards another bar, and two of our new nomad friends tagged along. On our walk, we found some Christian science book. I began ripping the pages out one by one, throwing them all through the street, and singing very, very loudly...enough for the whole city to hear. We were approached by a cop because of my littering issue.

NOTE: I am on probation, so anything having to do with cops should have totally freaked me out. Here I am with these strung out homeless kids, high out of my mind, and littering.

The neurontin allowed me to keep my cool. The officer literally yelled at me..'WHY would you throw those papers on the ground?' I found it to be rather comical. I kept my cool, thinking to myself that this guy was on a bicycle. I'd like to see him try to arrest me or one of my friends. The whole 'interrogation' situation did not make me feel anything. No fear, nothing. Just relaxation and a very free feeling.

2am- we made our way to an after hours gay bar with our new nomad friends. They showed us around the city and we broke it off, planning to meet again soon. In the bar, I was the life of the party and a social butterfly. I made about 5 more friends, collected several numbers, and just felt an overall satisfaction with myself and who I am. Everyone was my best friend, including myself.

3am- we walked back to my car (about 2 miles) and honestly talked to every person we ran into along the way. We passed a nice looking fellow with beads and dreadlocks and talked to him for at least 20 minutes. No reason. Just saying hello and going from there. By this point, I was so mellow and still quite euphoric. It felt good to be alive. We exchanged numbers yet again with this new person, and made our way to the car.

3:30- back at the car, we met up with another friend that both my buddy and I knew from high school. We chilled in the parking structure and spoke to every person headed to their cars. Most of them would come by and chill with us for awhile and just talk and laugh, whatever. I had no fear.

5- we FINALLY left the parking structure after making many, many more friends. I hit the sack when I got home and was feeling exhausted, sedated, and completely happy with how my night played out. I couldn't believe that myself of all people was able to make so many new friends, without a trace of anxiety. It was a beautiful, glowing feeling. Laying in my bed, I had all lights off and was staring at the bright light coming from my phone. Looking into the darkness caused me to see some pretty intricate patterns. I don't believe this is from the neurontin alone. I'm assuming it was a mixture of lack of sleep and the drug.

Another thing that I left out is the sound distortion neurontin gives me. The first time I took it, and old Taking Back Sunday song came on, and sounded completely raw and slowed down. I was convinced it was the demo version. To my surprise, I didn't even have the demo on my computer. It was all in my head. Neurontin completely chances perception of music. No song sounds the same on neurontin.


All and all, it was such a wonderful night. It gave me some insight on my anxiety disorder. After talking to so many people who were completely and genuinely friendly, I wondered what's holding me back when I'm sober? I experienced proof that its worth it to be social and just meet as many people as possible. Why not try it sober? Lots to think about!

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 97481
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Feb 6, 2016	Views: 20,993
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