DOSE:

1

oral

Pharms - Fentanyl

(patch)

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

[Erowid Note: The doses described in this report are potentially life threatening. The amount taken is beyond a heavy dose and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Doses such as this have been known to cause hospitalizations and/or deaths. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
New Year's Eve

I've had several close calls with death in my years of pharmaceutical abuse, but never really had a true overdose until I managed to get my hands on the mack daddy of all painkillers: Fentanyl...

I suppose I should give a little background first. My addiction with opiates started pretty typically in my early 20's, from popping a couple Lortabs for a simple back injury, which eventually progressed to snorting several 30mg Roxicodone tablets at a time, mmmmmmmmany times a day. I eventually got myself on Suboxone. I was on that for about 16 months, at 16mg a day, which I just recently managed to quit cold turkey... How I did that without losing my mind, I'm not sure. But, at the end of the day, I have to say that I still do love opiates. I honestly don't think that demon will ever really go away, but by God I will never let myself get hooked on them again after going through what I have to quit...

Me and a former co-worker buddy of mine were both addicts together. When we didn't have a job to go do at any point during the day, we'd go score Roxies from our usual dealer. Well, like most drug dealers, this guy was sometimes not the most reliable. This day happened to be one of those days... And the lower in the sky the sun got, so did we, and we ended up calling on everyone we could think of. We just wanted to escape a night of withdrawal at this point, so when one guy said he had a couple Duragesic patches, we zoomed on over...

I knew Fentanyl was some strong, strong shit, but I had never actually done it before. With most drugs, especially oxy, I always knew exactly how much to put in my body in order to feel how I wanted to feel. But as with all new things, I figured this would definitely be one of those times that I should test a little first to see how I react...

I cut the gel-filled patch in half, squeezed a tiny amount into my mouth, and swished it around for about ten minutes. I'm driving home at this point, and I figured I had enough time before it kicked in. Which THANKFULLY, it didn't... Yet.

Nothing? Nothing at all...

So, figuring my opiate tolerance was more insane than I thought, I just took one of the halves, tore it open, and licked up the entire contents: A total of about 3.75mg of Fentanyl... (VERY HIGH DOSE. Do not attempt.) Swish. Wait. Repeat...

Still nothing?! WTF, I thought to myself. I'm not sick anymore, but surely something claiming to be 1,000 times stronger milligram per milligram than morphine would do more than this! Now maybe I was just getting impatient at this point, but without that familiar warm and fuzzy blanket floating down from the heavens in the hands of God himself to keep me perpetually happy, I was getting downright pissed.

And in my frustration, I made the near fatal mistake of ... you guessed it, taking the other half of the patch.

Thankfully I was back home at this point, because as soon as I got up to my room and sat down at my computer, I realized that I hadn't actually sat down in the chair so much as fall into it...

Okay, I think to myself. It's definitely doing something now. Before I can really process what's happening to me, my eyelids begin to close of their own accord. A heavy unwillingness to move sets into my entire body as I nod off to what I quickly realized was utter oblivion... Complete numbness everywhere. I knew that I wouldn't be able to maintain consciousness for long, but I found myself unable to care.

No euphoria, no pain, no high, nothing... BAM... And I was gone.

Four Hours Later . . .

I thank whatever higher power may exist in the universe that, for whatever reason, I had set my phone to full volume before the void took me. Because it rang. And I woke up. My consciousness took a concerning amount of time to rush back up from the depths. I sucked in several lungfuls of air, and realized that my neck was suddenly in horrible pain, because it had apparently been hanging off the back of my computer chair for four hours...

It was my buddy, asking me to drive him home from the bowling alley that was next to my apartments. The drug was gone as quickly as it had come on. I got there, and he was absolutely trashed from whatever amount of Fentanyl he had also apparently ingested... His face was bright red yet stark pale white underneath. He was shocked when I told him that I had consumed my entire patch. I could only shake my head at how stupid this whole day had been, and ask myself ... how the hell was I even still alive?

Exp Year: 2011	ExpID: 99336
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: Sep 8, 2021	Views: 1,940
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